Personal Vision for R-ageyouth

This is my personal vision. It may not reflect the official vision of the youth ministry. But this is something that has been in my heart for the longest time. Those that I had the chance to share with know how passionate I am bout this. So while I still have time, I shall make much of all I have to make a change.

My personal goal is not just to see personal victories in individuals, but a collective change that will change the culture and the lives of the people that comes to the Youth Cell and Services.

I just wanna solely rely on the Lord and keep this in prayer. It's the most powerful tool coz God is the only one who is able to make that change.

The Highest Stage

"It is the highest stage of manhood to have no wish, no thought, no desire, but Christ."

-Charles Spurgeon-

Jesus gave His blood for us;what will we give to Him?

Hypocrisy

This is a quote worthy words by Spurgeon. It tickles me as much as it pierces me.

"I am told that Christians do not love each other. I am very sorry if that be true, but I rather doubt it, for i suspect that those who do not love each other are not Christians."

-Charles Spurgeon

You're all I need

This is a classic song by The Kry. The first verse just melts me everytime I feel I've been far. The love of God has remained true always to those who are called by Him. Thank You, Jesus!

why do i sway
i can't face the day without You
my heart drifts away
but Your love remains always true

as i'm sailin' away
on the rivers of time
Your love will carry me through
the storms in my life

Chorus:
You're all I need
when the world is closin' in
my strength is runnin' thin
when i'm lost in the storm
You're all i need there's no need to look anywhere
there's nothing that can compare
to the love that You give
You're all i need

sometimes i wait
until i can't take anymore
You show me the way
You help me sail back to the shore

when i'm drifting away
on the angry tides
i cast out my anchor into
the sea of Your love

Repeat chorus

You're all i need
You're all that i want
nothing in this world
could give me more

Repeat chorus

why do i sway
i can't face the day without You!
all i can say
You're all i need

Running again...

Found this in my archieves. I called it "Run to You Pt.2"previously. I read it and felt that someone need to pray this prayer too. I hope u're blessed!

What do others to see in me?

A testimony with patches sewn by the Lord's hands?

A testimonial that is marked by tears of joy and regrets

that are dried in the sunshine of His grace and mercy?

A legacy for all to see that the Lord has indeed been good to me?

Can they feel the Grace that surrounds and mercy that abounds which let me live again?

My GOD My GOD, let me be alive as Your Word brings life to me.

I have been so dry in the desert of my self-centredness.

You have not been far in times my witness failed.

You kept me near the cross and let me know you're with me all this while.

To You I am sorry.

I fell when I tried but I failed.

So I run to You where I am free

Back to You where I am home

A Simple Prayer

Lord I humbly come to You

Do not take Your hands from me

Do what you want me to

I am Yours

Please live in me

We'll walk this land together

I will not be afraid

We'll climb through snake and ladders

I will not be dismayed

Coz You love me endlessly

With a love unconditional

-The Other Side of Glory-

Cross on Chains

I do not wear a crucifix anymore because I don't know where I put it. But as time progresses, it became less and less of a profession of faith and more and more a fashion statement than anything else. The stars on MTV are wearing it, people in the streets are wearing it. What's their point? What's your point? I use to have a point to prove, but it became pointless. Today, I wear my "WWJD" bracelet and it started more discussion about my faith then the days I wore a crucifix. You'll definitely not see those MTV stars wearing this bracelet unless they truly believe in the God behind the idea.

Then again, it's only an ornament that we adorn on our wrist or our bags. Let's live our live so that we can match up to the question. Frankly speaking, Jesus wouldn't wear any of those stuff. The only thing that is on his wrist were the scars from the crucifixion. And the cross that he bore was not decorated in gold or precious stones. His cross was a heavy piece of wood that is a mark of shame that he dares us to carry.

Not many have the strength, but in Christ we can!

Cross on chains

Plated gold

Big or small

We'll never know

You must know my friend

I must take a stand

For the cross I bear

Not the cross you wear

You mock God

Hands on chains

There's no escape

Too blind to see

The King of kings

You must know my friend

I must take a stand

That the God u cuz

Is the God I serve

You mock God

Revival God's Way: Excerpts from Chapter 7

I'm no through with reading Leonard Ravenhill. What passion! What fire! What boldness to speak of the things that plagues the church!

Months ago The Wall Street Journal had an article on "the Electronic Church." The New Testament Church was not electronic, it was electrifying. The Church fresh from the Upper Room invaded the world; now the church in the supper room is invaded by the world.

The New Testament Church did not depend on a moral majourity, but rather on the holy minority. The church right now has more fashion than passion, is more pathetic than prophectic, is more superficial thank supernatural. The church Apostles ministered in was a suffering church; today we have a sufficient church; in this day the church is oftern just amusing. The Nw Testament Church was identified with persecutions, prisons, and pverty; today many of us are identified with prosperity, popularity and personalities.

We lack apostolic power because we lack apostolic piety, and we liack apostolic piety because we lack apostolic purity. Every church in the country needs a dozen Spirit-annointed sermons on Acts 15:8,9

"And God, who knows the heart, testified to them giving them the Holy Spirit, just as He also did to us; and He made no distinction between us and them, cleansing their hearts by faith. "

One theme that sticks out from what I shared today is IDENTITY. How are we identified to be real Spirit-filled believers? Does our desire for God match the desire of God to fill us? We may not be pure enough (yet), but do we have that desire to match our lives to the Saviour that we are drawn by? How far will we go to be indentified as disciples of Christ? It's time to seperate ourselves.

"Therefore, COME OUT FROM THEIR MIDST AND BE SEPARATE," says the Lord. "AND DO NOT TOUCH WHAT IS UNCLEAN; And I will welcome you.
(2Co 6:17)

Let's continue to seek His face and live our lives worthy of the calling. The road is hard, but it's worth it. Just remember who is your source of life. With Him we are able to persevere through ever trial and temptations. Those that He justified, will be sanctified and one day, glorified!

You are my strengthwhen I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all
Seeking you like a precious jewel
Lord, to give up Id be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of GodHoly is your name (2x)

Taking my cross,my sin my shame
Raising again I praise your name
You are my all in all
When I fall down you pick me up
When I run dry you fill my com
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of GodHoly is your name (2x)

Ravenhill

If you go to Civic Plaza outside Ngee Ann City this past weekend, u'll see Singtel having some mobile promotions, "White Hot Christmas". I'd like to share something I read this morning from Leonard Ravenhill in his book "Revival God's Way". I love the way he uses "white hot" to describe the faith we must have rather than the very overused phrase "red hot".

"We mouth words about eternity, but live and think as if time will never end. WHere, oh, where are the eternity-conscious believers? Where are the souls white-hot for God becaues they fear His holy name and presence and so live with eternity's values in view?

If we had more sleepless nights in prayer, there would be far fewer souls to have a sleepless eternal night in hell."

Wow!!

And a comment from Jean which I thought was pretty inspiring when we were chatting about encouraging growth in the body of Christ. Check this out:

"...pray n ask God to provide ppl who can grow and spur you on in the word of God... its not a easy journey - and a lot of his fellowmates have fallen away... "

Wow!!

Preach

This was how BAD P.O.D's lyrics were in the past. It's in your face and uncompromising. Though they are still my favourite all-time band, I sometimes think that they use of rastafarism terms is rather unneccasary esp since "Fundamental Elements of the Southtown". This song is from their 2nd CD "Brown" which is my fave P.O.D album. It's so in-your-face!! They were so totally unashamed of the gospel. I do not doubt their heart for God today. There are always a debate over whether Christians should be vocal about their beliefs while working in a secular world. How far would we do to become salt and light of the world? How much will we compromise to be accepted by the world? Should we be unashamed to the extent that we lose our right to share the gospel, if not with words, then with art? If faith comes by the hearing the world of God, does it come by "seeing" or sensing the Word of God thru art? How far could we go? It's an endless debate. I support Christian and their art, but the "nay" sayers are always opposing them coz they are not "vocal" about it. Is preaching the only way to share the gospel? According to the Word, it's just one of the ways, but becaues it's also the most mentioned way, is the the way for today's society whoes ears are shut, but many eyes are being opened to see what words once failed to pierce through.

I do not yet have a stand on this as a musician/artiste wannabe. I play safe, because the bible is clear about "hearing the word of God" I shall sing and talk about my faith. The visuals that I see whether in "christian art" or in nature is a reflection of the artiste (in this case men and God) heart which needs to be interpreted by words.

Let it be know that you heard it from here When I'm on this microphone you know I make myself clear With the power, with the love with the boldness Look in my eyes and remember wo told you this Payable on Death gonna hit ya hit - man Talk all you want, I don't fear any man Cuz ya frontin' ain't nothin but words to me You never had the stuff and your but ain't crazy enough To handle, we come step to me My King is He in the power of Three So what you want you ain't down with us You get so scared, so mad when I say the word Jesus I ain't down, you preach too much But if you ask me boy, I don't think I preach enough I tell you God is real, so don't miss the boat But since we come off hard, you say we shove it down your throats You wanna talk that talk, walk that walk I'm the only person you see, but it ain't me that you mock Man is nothing, but you think that you're bad Fool if it wasn't for my God, I would have already had you Deny His name are you willing to admit it And if so, are you willing to die for it Cuz I am, He is my life and I don't fear death Cuz he already paid the price All your talk and are your threats ain't jack blaspheme my God Yo punk I'm not having that, turn away it's your own loss Cuz all I can do is just take them to the cross...

Daniel Rush

This is a pict that my pal, Daniel took with Liverpoor legend Ian Rush. I was a Everton supporter when I was a kid and Ian Rush was the cause of many heartbreaking nights esp in the 1986 and 1990 FA Cups.

I am not going to church today coz of the CNB shoot. It'll be a long week for me, pls remember to pray for me, k? Today's call-time is 9.30am but thank God tomorrow starts at 11.15am, but I am sure we'll end super late on one or two occations. But I am looking fwd to it. Speaking of tomorrow, I have not excuse not to do my QT in the morning. I must, I must, I must discipline myself. I love God, I love His Word. Therefore I will pray to God and I will read His Word.

Sharpen my sense to You, Lord
From sin I want to be desensitised
Help me not to lose feelings to your leading

Today

Gloria is back. Yes, but it won't be a full-fronted assault. We'll jam as and when I am free. But we still want to play together. That's at least what Ah Ney and I felt. Josh said he is ok with it. Jon can't commit because of Sky's and Sonic Edge involvement, but he gave us his blessing to carry on wihout him. Exciting times are ahead for us. And once again, I am looking forward to meet them to jam again!

I went to NP to have a chat with Beni which was my main reason for being there. I also met Elaine, who happened to studying at SIM now, and I had the opportunity to comfort her, listen to her and pray with her (right outside those glass panel in front of lunchtime crowd!). If u guys are clueless what I am talking about, Elaine's boyfriends died in a motor-cycle accident in Malaysia 2 months ago. She looked strong, but I know she is still griefing, but she said she is slowly rising. I was so happy to see her that I stopped my conversation with Beni, ran out of the foot court at SIM and went to talk to her. My heart really went out to her and even now. Pls pray for her, if u know her, call her and be an encouragement to her.

Later Jon Hems arrived and I got back my "Hell Fest" DVD and we catch up a little. He and SE band will be performing in Bangkok this weekend. Wow! What an opportunity! I also had a opportunity to go for an overseas shoot at Mumbai, India, but I had to reject it coz I am already booked for other jobs. I am sure the chance will come agian.

Jeremy, Jialiang, Josh, Shawn, Matt and I had a feast at Wheellock's Sakae Sushi this afternoon. It was pretty awesome. I ate so much until I felt so sleepy, so I went to Purmei and slept there before I went to TPY to meet SW. I watched Harry Portter, which was an enjoyable movie. It's also the first film I watched since Star Wards EpIII! Yes, it's been 5 months since I went to the movies.

I am pondering about something. It has to to with what I wrote previously... just thinking... just merrily thinking... praying...

Bridges

I wrote this after pondering over the next course of action when people ask me for advice. Sometimes I don't know what exactly is going in their lives and sometimes I don't know what to say. I only pray that they will be honest with me and that they could take my honest assessment of their situation, but there are times when I assume too much and I flet that I've put my own shoes into my mouth. I am asking the Lord for wisdom so that I will say things that will help them at that moment. I also prayed that the advice I give will not be a temporal solution, but may they be lessons that will help them in their lives. Sometimes I repeat myself many times. I feel old doing that, but I hope it served them well. Above all may the Lord's name be glorified!

Though we have never spoken

I felt I've always known you

I've known you through your walk

I've known you through your talk

Could I put my hands in your heart

To find out who you really are?

I always say this and I'll say it again

Feel free and do whatever you want

Enjoy youself while you are young

Keep close to you the lessons that you have learned

Coz you'll never walked again on the bridges that you burned

Long week ahead

I am going to make the most of today and tomorrow to chill out coz I'll be working on the CNB shoot from Sunday to Thurs. Then from Fri to Sun, I'll be united with Juliana (an old friend from IRC) who's directing a realiality show. But the real tiring one will be from Monday to Thurs coz it's all drama and it's not uncommon to shoot for more than 10 hours. However I do look forward to it (only if I start sleeping early now). Pray for me, if I have little sleep, I'll keep yawning and falling asleep on set. That's not very professional in my opinion.

Siong ah, but shiok!

Ah Ney

If you read this and know him, pray for him.

I hung out with Ah Ney and Gabriel today. I really love hanging out with them. Esp when Ah Ney could inspire someone like Gab and me. What a night! We hung out at Far East Plaza's BK then we went to HMV where I found my POD's Warriors EP Vol 2. But wow wow... I am praying for Jason. He is such a great guy. He may not be perfect, but he has grown despite all the things that happened to him in the past 3 months or should I say past many years.

Are we not forgiving? He is experiencing this "Tough love" treatment that is being practiced and which I think it's crap. I wonder if Jesus used "tough love" treatment on his disciples. Tough love meaning giving the cold-shoulder and stuff like that. "Tough love" is no love. Esp if the person feels that way. To me the defination of "tough love" is showing love thru the show of authority, wielding the sword of accountibilty which is given to speak strongly towards the person. We have to show that sometimes, esp when someone is in grave error. This reminds me of someone who left and kept lamenting to me that the church is full of hypocrites. If only he opened his eyes, he would've seen his lack of vision is due to his inability and unwillingness to see things in the light of Christ. When people gave him a second chance, he didn't grab it. Now all he does is complain, blaming everyone except himself.

Ah Ney is not like that! The times when I feel the Lord restores him, there was a genuine change, but he is not perfect yet,. Though he slide back so many times, God has been gracious and been showing him so much grace thru the years. See, the difference between Jason and the other case I mentioned was this. Jason humbled himself and admitted his mistakes. Ok, it seems like he always does this, but each time I spoke to him the attitude became more sincere. It's not the way he said it. If you are sensitive and been hanging out with him. You could feel the spirit behind those words. It was done in complete surrender to the Lordship of Christ. I give him the benefit of the doubt, I don't say things to discourage him, but not before I said many things as usual and pray for him. Yes, pray for him. Pray for yourselves. Pray for those that has left us. Pray for those who are "in the world". Continue to strive to make our churches a "safe" place. Safe but bot compromising.


Hi Beni, Tia, Jonathan, Derek, Justicia and Val! Great to see u all in school!!

Everything will be alright

I've given my all

I've done my best

Dancing in the dark

I stood the test

When there's a shadow there's a light

When there is Jesus everything will be alright

A blur in the life of... Pt VI

I never thought I could become a teacher of the Word in any capacity. In 98, Xiaowei attended a Precept Ministry bible-study that was attended my some of my YAC heavyweights. I thought if these people attend it, it must be good! I was quite lost at first. They were doing 1st or 2nd Thess and they did Eschatology (studies of the endtimes) and for the firs time I could understand what those prophecies were about. After that came the book of Romans which was so cheem. But I began to realized that with the right tools for bible study, I could understand the bible! I learned that correct interpretation was necessary for correct application of the word. That’s what make Christianity alive to me. All along I believed something that was simply taught to me or preached to me, but when I read the word and understood it, it felt as if the Lord is speaking directly to me without the denominational or organizational filters.


Knowing the word added spice into my life. I no longer feel that I was a Christian with lots of fireworks only, but with substance too. The final piece of the jigsaw had been placed. Now the work has just begun! I am saved by the grace of God through faith in what He has done, what He is doing and what He will do. What Christ had done changed me and caused me to obey him out of an obedient heart. What I have become is not through my own doing, but by faith though strength given to me by God’s spirit that lives in me. My good works does not save me, these good works that I do is a result of God’s love and guidance through discipleship. Though I am alive in Christ today, I am still tempted by the ways of the world to fulfill the lusts of the flesh. I am in this body and thus I am susceptible to sin. This does not mean God’s salvation in me is incomplete. I am just acknowledging that without Christ in me, I am just a sinner. The difference is now I stand before you a sinner saved by grace. I am a child of the living God who was and who is to come. I am waiting for you Lord Jesus, so mean while help me gather your flocks to meet You when You come again.

Great Sunday

Wow... Wow... Wow...

What a day! What a day! I am simply so blessed today. I had a great breakfast with SW this morning, then went to church to join the prayer meeting though I joined them mid way through. After that I led the Sec 2 Boys' cell and I thought them a little bit about Inductive Bible Study using a very simple text, Psalm 1. After that I rushed to join the musicians to pray for before the youth service. I shared from my heart and I encouraged them to be prepared for what the Lord is doing in our Youth Service.

This Sunday's worship might be the last one that I'll be leading. I do not know if I have the time to do it again, esp with the work that I am involved in until early Feb and I definitely need to take a break from the middle of next year. One thing for sure, it will not be a permanent break. My heart is withR-age and I feel that I have a lot to give to the Lord. Hey, but there is a time for everything, right? Ok, may be I should not count the chicken before they hatch, I shall take it as it comes. I don't know what will really happen, but I know Jesus is in control. I must not worry, I cannot worry and I won't worry. I have to trust God or fail miserably. Exciting days are ahead. I shall grab it in my hands and sieze every moment I'm given.

I am very blessed to see the congregation participating in praising and worshipping God. I pray that the offering that they offer to the Lord is out of their hearts. There were tears and there were people on their knees. I cannot deny them or question their moment of brokeness before the Lord. Why should I burst their bubbles and question if they are for real? Who am I to judge them in that manner? One thing is for sure, their life will be the ultimate testimony. Sure they will stumble at times, but grace of God which we are standing on will prevail as we persevere in trials and rejoice in our perdicament. This is the only way that we'll be tested if we are real. The good times are great, I thank God for them. I also will thank God for my afflictions for in my brokeness and helplessness God will be glorified when I keep my trust in Him with all my heart. I know our salvation is sure and the Lord will never fail us for his name sake. O let the love for God within you grow.

To my CFS peeps who played those songs and the friends who sang those songs with us. You guys made me wanna jam even more! I can't wait!!!

"NO MORE LULLABY!!"

Hahaha...

A blur in the life of... Pt V

This paragraph was added on 10 Nov 2005 after I read Vern’s blog where she shared a similar incident. That incident was an important milestone in my life.

My NS days were enjoyable. I was combat fit for about 9 months before I was downgraded. A lot of things happened is my last 1 year in NS such as the one I shared above. I felt like I was “Born-again” again! Like any new believer I still made some mistakes, but there was tremendous growth in my life. Two incidents in NS that had a great impact on me were. The first one was during Mdm Tan’s birthday party where I got pissed-drunk that I had to be carried back to camp. Mdm was nice and gave me the weekend off. I promised not to drink too much after that and I’ve been watching myself when I hang out with friends. The second incident involved Mdm’s successor, Warrant Officer WO Sim. He was a Christian too. WO Sim was also a believer and based on the things he had in his office, he was also an elder. When he took office I had about 4 months left in my NS. I think I was in ORD mood too soon coz my work got shoddy and I had a really bad attitude when it came to work. One day I was in WO Sim’s office and 3Sg Timothy from HQ came to see him. When he left I told WO Sim, I told WO Sim that Tim was a Christian too. He looked at me and shot right back at me, “Chia, I think u are an imposter, u know! You say you are a Christian but your attitude is very bad!” WOW!!! That was a brick, no, it’s a mountain over my head! It hit me hard man! I was so stunned that I left the room in silence, then I felt angry with WO Sim, later that evening, I became angry with myself. The whole office could see something was wrong. I didn’t tell anyone. I have not told any one since. My ego was crushed, WO Sim was right. I did some soul-searching after that. If I ever see WO Sim in the streets again, I’ll shake his hands and tell him “Thank You”. God used him to shake me up.

Today

I had quite an eventful day today. I met Samantha to play some songs from the Keith Green books and had a great time singing them. Man, I couldn't believe what I was hearing! She was not perfect at first, but as she continue to play, u can hear the improvement. I was really impressed when she told me that she practiced a whole day when I lend the books to her last time. Apart from the Keith Green songs, we also did some TOSOG songs which now made me really excited about the jam that we'll have in Dec. We did "Run to You", "Here am I" and "Change". Dang, "Change" was hard, I couldn't even remember what I played. Sam and I had a hard time figuring it out. It was a tough song, what great chord progression! What a great song-writer!! hohoho...

I led worship at YA today. I was greatly blessed by how the service went. The YA are not dead, they are just different. I think they are passionate bout God. But if they don't shout and dance doesn't mean they are not on fire. After the service I hung out with one of my kids, Lisheng. Yeah, the big guy! He is a big guy to many, but a kid to me. We had a great time sharing and talking crap at "That CD Shop" and the supermarket there. I just gave him a pretty hard time with my nonsense. We've always chatted on the phone or thru sms, but this is the first time we hung out.

Just before I blogged this, someone called to ask me something, but we didn't just hang up after that. There were some heart-felt sharing between us about our spiritual condition. I am glad that I could encourage others. I though I could hear sobing over the phone, may be it was just the cold. Which ever the case, I know God is in control. One of the first step is realizing that there is a problem, the next step is to find a solution. I am glad that we found it in Christ within the Word. I am glad we had that conversation. I will be praying for ya! Hang in there!! Yahoo!!!

"Jesus Blood never failed me yet

Is one thing I know for He loved me so"

A blur in the life of... Pt IV

This is not an official account of what really happened in the youth ministries of Grace A/G. I am just recounting what I thought happened.

Bro Edmund had a philosophy then that rock music cannot be used for evangelism. That was the reason he told me for not attending another combined A/G youth event. I was quite startled actually because I thought as a youth leader, he should understand the youth culture better than anyone else in church. GYA didn’t survive long. Bro Edmund left Singapore to Aussieland and it became a cell group after I “left” church in December 1994. However the core people led by Vincent and Chin Seng remained together for quite a long time.

What happened in 1995 and 1996 will always be remembered as the turning point of my adult life. It was the year I went for my national service and I was in a relationship where I almost ended my life. It was a year of realization of love, faith and hope. I found out who I really was and what I want to do with my life. I also realized who my real friends are and where my position in Christ Jesus really was.

I went into a relationship that ripped me apart. I thought she was a good Christian girl, who turned out to be manipulative and possessive. My relationship with my parents became a sour after an ugly confrontation over some money that was missing from the house. She maintained her innocence, I stood by her and my dad told her off that if she took the money, she would be cursed. After we broke off a mutual friend told me that the girl has always been suspected of stealing money from others. Up till today, I don’t know if she did steal the money. She was quite possessive in a way that she doesn’t want me to go home every night when I book out. As a result I had to lie to her just to spend time at home playing with the new Laser Disc system. She even followed me whenever I book out of camp for my medical appointment at Tan Tock Seng. We went to church once in a while. Every time I did, I was so happy to be in the midst of my friends. She complained that I seemed happier with them than with her.

To cut the long story short, I went to bro Dennis’ house to share about this relationship. There I was at his Queen’s Close flat crying in front of him. I told him that she threatened to kill herself if I leave her (oh so many times) and sis Jac shot back and said “Then let her be!” I was so stunned! She explained that if that girl claims to be a believer, she would not even think bout such thoughts. If she keeps using that to threatened me, I should just forsake this relationship. What happened at their house that night was fuzzy, but that statement changed my mind set about that relationship. I knew that relationship had to end!

In Nov 95, I told her that I want to go back to Sunday School because I wanted to graduate from Sunday School with my pals. She protested and after one week even asked me if I could give Sunday School a miss. I was persistent and I went to Sunday School. Even though I was missing for the whole of that year’s Sunday School, I manage to get my certificate as part of the most happening class in Sunday School history (hehehe… in my opinion). The relationship ended in February the following year.

1996 was a great year of learning for me. Although I still find learning a little difficult in Young Adults Class, I enjoyed all the lessons. I still kept the file of that class. At that time I was fighting against voices that tells me people are watching me (which is true), but I took it as an opportunity to show those who were watching that the Lord is changing me. I was not allowed to participate actively in any ministry. Even during the ministry attachment I was just attached to a team and wasn’t allowed to play. YAC was a time of discovering our gifts and ministry. Being involved in music ministry since sec 2, it was the only ministry that I see myself doing. Bro Dennis even joked that if I ever became a Sunday School teacher, I’ll bring the kids astray. It was very crude, right? But I know what he meant because back then, I was really weak in the word and music was the only thing in me that excel. I wasn’t offended at all. The whole class actually had a good laugh with me. At the end of 96, I was dating Xiaowei.

A blur in the life of... Pt III

It was magical while it lasted and lasted it did til this very day. However it is not all a bed of roses. If you asked me during my early to mid teen I have been dependent on "experiential" faith. Since that day of redidication, there was one other incident at Trinity Christian Centre's youth service (At WTC then). Sis Jocelyn brought a few of the Sunday school pals there to check out their youth service regularly before we go back to Grace for our Sunday school. During the years of 1989 and 90, we were using SAJC for our service and it didn't start until late morning, thus we had the time to visit TCC's youth service. TCC was very inspiring. It became my "2nd church". If I missed Sunday school, I'll attend their later service. At one particular youth service which I went a long, the worship team was leading the song "The Spirit is falling" and I wept and wept throughout the song. The phrase in the song that broke the banks of the river was "Ths Spirit gives me heaven's birth". It was totally awesome! My first fuzzy wuzzy worship experience. The spirit was moving indeed becasue the worship team just went on an on. When I look back, I wouldn't deny it as the work of the Holy Spirit, but repeating the song make it looks hypnotipical. Anyway, I remember greeting the church members after worship with tears left in my eyes as if to tell the dude, "Hey I was 'crying in the chapel'"! It was an Elvis song in case u didn't know.

Since then I look forward to every worship session. The more I expect to feel the fuzzy wuzzy feeling, the more disappointed I become because it didn't happen many times. It didn't happen for quite sometime. In fact it seldom happen. I think I wept in service more after I return from "babylon" at the end of 95 (the details will be in a later chapter). However it didn't cause me to lose my faith in God. ALl I did was look forward to the next worship service. Mind you, I wasn't even interested in the word yet. In a way, u could say I had a lot of fire, but zero in substance. This did not discourage my faith at all. I guess my time was not yet then, but it was the building of tremendous belief in God that would later help me in "babylon". I cound confidently say that though I still had problem understanding the bible and some bombastic sunday school lessons, my faith in God was unwavering. It's true, once u've been touch, u'll never deny Him.

But then why didn't those high feelings return? How come I didn't weep? Is God done with me? I cannot remember my exact sentiments back then, but I just continue to serve the Lord with all my heart based on the "deliverance" from fear. I just couldn't deny Him. I didn't have the answer for what I was feeling until 2001. It was the Youth Retreat at Sunway Lagoon. One of my cell gals was moved by the Spirit and was manifesting it through the shaking-cum-weeping thing. During the next service she asked me how come she didn't feel anything at that service? She felt that the Spirit of God had left her and she didn't felt loved by God. That comment jogged my memory and I remembered how I felt back then after the weeping thing at every other services. I also realised what faith is now to tell her that when God touches you and u feel the fuzz and wuzz, it's a bonus. We do not depend on the firework display to know that GOd loves us. He lives in us and that is real and only by faith would we know it and not by feelings alone. May be I was young back then but as I look back now, it's faith that sustained me, not the experiences. Praise God, I am ok!

Grace Sunday School is not like TCC's youth service. TCC had a really charismatic pastor in Ps Dominique. He really pulled the Youths together in a special way. In a way, he was my first inspirational youth pastor. I knew that our yourh pastor had to be someone with his kind of character. Later in 1990, Grace started it's first youth service. I was so excited! At last there is our very own youth serice at Grace Assmebly! I was looking forward to it. I thought it was time for us to "do the youth thing" together like I experienced in TCC. With the fire I had in me, I was ready to spread the fire. Sis Joycelyn was in YFC back then and she encouraged us to organise Evangelistic meetings in 90 and 91. They were challenging, but it really got us into serving God in a bigger scale. The Sunday school, though split into three classes at one time, were not very united, but this changed when we were in Sr Teen 2 (when we were about 19, the last age group in the old Youth Division) when the then two classes combined (in the midst of much protest) and the following year when I returned from babylon the most happening and rocking Young Adult Class affectionately known to us as YAC 96

The first youth service in Grace was not really that "happening". It didn't feel like it had a "youth service vibe". It was wierd, it was more like trying to be another adult service just that it was feeled with youths. The worship leaders were adults, eek! Ok I am one too now, right? David do a way better job then those dudes. But hey, I respect them, ok? They are powerful men of God! The youth service gave me an opportunity to learn guitar and drums. In 1991, I started playing drums for the youth service. Seriously, I sucked, but I held the fort. hahaha! Wow, I have been playing guitar and drums for about 14 years now. i still suck (because i have high standards), CHEY! During the 1991 youth camp at the age of 15, I lead my first Praise and Worship session.

After about one year, the youth service was dissolved and the youths joined the adult service for worship then they leave for sunday school. It was a wierd arrangement. In 1993 bro Edmund Cheong started another youth service called "Grace Youth Alive"(GYA). That was also the year that Xiaowei came to Sunday school. I only know her as my Sunday School mate then, I was dating someone else then. Why so Kaypo? Anyway, this service wasn't on Sunday. It was on Saturday afternoons. However the attendence was quite pathetic about 20-30 people attend it regularly. Then there was also the slowly dying ISCA (Inter-School Christ Ambassadors) and GYC (Grace Youth Club). We also had GSS (Grace Sunday School). One church, so many youth related activities. It was quite a mess in my opinion. But I always thought that GYA was the so-called official youth service because we did organise big evangelistic stuff and also attend the big combined Assemblies of God's youth conferences. It was fun though. Many people back then have a huge influence in my life: Bro Edmund, Vincent, Glenn, Augustine, Robin and Jun Han.

Seeing God

One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD And to meditate in His temple. For in the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle; In the secret place of His tent He will hide me; He will lift me up on a rock. And now my head will be lifted up above my enemies around me, And I will offer in His tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD.

Psa 27:4-6

We had our last RL meeting tonight. Suhui led worship, which was really good coz she chose those songs prayerfully while was doing her personal time of worship. She led some old songs that I bet we have not sung in the past 10 years.

I extol You

Lord, I extol You

You are hight above the earth

All creation shouts Your worth

I extol You

Lord, I extol You

My Jehovah I extol You

I was so blessed coz I had a time of reflection myself and did some soul searching about my spiritual condition. CX prayed about asking God to give us a glimpes of His glory just as he showed Moses. I didn't ask God to show me His face, coz I am not worthy, but I didn't ask Him to by his mercy and grace. This used to be my prayer every week . Coz to be able to see God's face and live is a testiment to His mercy and grace. Since CX shared about it, I took the opportunity to realign my life right on track. I am determined to go on a higher gear from tonight. I've been stuck in a moment for too long. It's time to get greased up and roll out towards the Kingdom of God!

"Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God."

Matt 5:8

A blur in the life of... Pt II

I was the only fool to think that my behaviour was acceptable. I thought I was alright, but I was blinded by my own arrogance. I didn't find solace anywhere. I was still going to church, but going to church was just a time of meeting up with friends like Daniel Ho and enjoying the attention I got in Sunday School. There was no solace for me. Everywhere I went I was afraid; I'll stand frozen and look around to make sure I was not being watched. I'd even check the pillars under my flat to make sure no one was following me. I'd even walk to the end of the lift-landing on the 11th floor to make sure I was safe. I was paralysed by fear.

During this time I was introduced to the music of Guns N Roses GnR. It open my life to the world of rock and roll. I really liked their stuff, but I couldn't stand the sweearing even though I was using it myself. But when I hear excessive swearing, it just didn't sound right to me. It's definitely not cool at all. Back then I was only listening to cassettes, my only three hard-rock cassettes were by GnR and Def Leppard. During that period of 1990, the Newpaper did an article about the occult's influence in Singapore. I was very curious about it especially on the topic of occultic influeces in the music that we listen to. Bro Matthew, my Sunday school teach bought tickets for a seminar called "Satanism Unmasked" and he asked me if I wanted to go. I said i wanted and so I was suppose to collect the ticket from him in the morning during church. For some reason, I didn't go to church that day. Wei Kurk went with me and I met him at WTC.

Throughout the seminar, the fear was at the back of my head, trying to stop me from listening to the speaker. The speaker made an altar-call for those who wants to break free from the influence of rock music in our lives. I responded and went to the altar. Then the counselor led me to the hall way at the side of the hall and asked me what he could pray for me. I think my first words were, "I've very scared" and then the flood gates open and I began to weep as I pour my heart out. The counselor read Psalm 23:4 to me,

"Even thought I walk through the valley if the shadow of death, I fear no evil for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff. they comfort me."

He told me that I need a rededication and I became born-again that day, 11th March, 1990. I was 14 years old.

A blur in the life of... Pt I

This was something I posted in my livejournal about my life. It was written in February 2004. This is part 1 of 3.

Don't we all go through this state of confusion sometimes? It's time like these I think about what I am living for and how I have lived so far. I don't have a good memory (thank God for that!) but I do remember how I got rededicated my life to Jesus.

I was exposed to Christianity from a very young age. I remember when I was in kindergarten, dad brought the family to watch the "Jesus" film. I don't have much recollection of my childhood except some spaking I got from mom and the games IU played and places where I roamed as a kid. But I remember very clearly while watching the cruxifiction scene, I turned around and asked dad, "Why did Jesus die?". I looked behind and I saw a lady smiling at me. I continue watching the film.

I was enrolled in YWCA kindergarten for two years. That was actually my first encounter with Christianity. Then I went to ACPS and I learn more about Jesus during chapel. I really love the singsperation. Sister's best friend Siew Geok (Ps Joyce's niece) brought her to Grace in 1983. Sister ask me to follow her one sunday. It was 9th Sept 1983. As Sunday was my cartoons day, I decided not to go the following week, but sis told me that once I go I cannot don't go. So I've been attending church every since.

Fast Forward...

I didn't do well for my PSLE and I went to St Teresa's High School(STHS). I came to STHS with a high-and-mighty attitude because after all I was from ACS. I was so snobbish and arrogant. The F-word was constantly in my mouth. I was interested in girls and Michael Jackson (The "Bad" album was the flavour of the season). In Sec 2, I was given the post of "Tria-head prefect" and I was promoted to Express. I was very proud of myself and I thought everything was going well for me. I was one of the top athletes in school and I thought I was a popular figure in school. I am known to people alright, but for the wrong reasons.

One day the head prefect Benny called me and told me to change my attitude because some of his classmates are finding my attitude a little too much for their liking. I didn't take it too seriously, but I became more concious of my own behaviour. Nothing prepared me for what to come next. One of my new friend in sec one told me that a certain dude wanted to beat me up. Now that word "beat me up" really scared the sh*t out of me and fear began to set in.

to be continued...

Downtown

I first heard this song from a Blackball CD which I hijacked from Jon Hemsly and didn't return it to him since 1999 (He considered it mine since). The song is very catchy and had a sing-along-kind of chorus that is really cool. What I like about this song actually is what I perceive the lyricist, Christopher Scot (formerly of Precious Death).

Imagine one day, the person that u look up to as a mentor, motivator, inspiration suddenly fall away from the Lord. Or he gradually fades away then one day he stop being the influential person he or she used to be. When u see them again, what would u say to them?

I thought bout this. What if it was me? I fell in 95, I didn't consider the impact that it had to others. Until today, I only thought about the impact it had on me. I remembered what I learned from my closest friends in church. They told me that they were very disappointed coz back then I was like what I am today. I was serving very actively in Sunday School as well as the old youth ministry "Grace Youth Alive", though that grp was very small I was very involved in the music ministry then. Many questions were asked but no one really asked. I know people were genuinely concerned, such as when I went to NS. Vincent and Bro Chin Seng actually came down to 30 SCE to visit me during my visitation weekend in BMT. There are a lot of incidents of people trying to reach out to me when I try hard to recall.

I was young, I don't think I had a bit influence back then but my sudden retreat came as a shock to many. Hmm... I shall leave it for another day.

Downtown

I'd love to take you by the hand
And drag you out of here
I'd love to take you by the hand

And we'd boith like to think
That we'll both be ok
But that doesn't matter anyway
'Cuz everything we were and are
Is broken down and spilled out
On the floor

And though you're far away
You're not so fat that I don't remember

Downtown in the park
You're either fishes or you're sharks
Blue skies, green grass
And a new tattoo
Downtown in the park
You're either fishes or you're sharks
All I ever wanted
Was to be with you

I'd love to take you far away
Somewhere we can see clearly
Away from all these stange people
And all their starange problems
And I love to be with you
Night and Day, you know that I would
But the walls we built are strong enough
To keep us both apart for years and years

And aren't you the same one
That taught me to pray?
And then later walked away
Did you believe it?
When you told me?
That the love that we have has
To rise above these things?

Upward Bound

Hi all,

If u are in R-age Youth Ministries, change your MSN display picture to camp logo above. Let's spread an awareness of our coming Youth Camp even if you are not going, just like me. But I am equally excited for those who will be there. I'll be praying and I hope u'll join me also.

p.s. Pls remember to change ur nick to "XXX is Upward Bound"!

Urgency!

In our attempt to tackle the problems that our youths are facing, what is the best solution to any human problem? It is through preaching of the Word. No amount of singing or presentation could compensate for the lack of biblical preaching of the Word. We should continue to pray, trust and obey. Yes, Pray. Pray that we will trust God for His will to be accomplished in our youth ministry and to trust Him to rise up Elijahs who is willing to stand up for God while the others are sitting in the pews asking the Lord to send others but themselves.

I know there are many prayer warriors; many agonizers amongst us. It's time to be counted for and it's time to rise from ur slumber. Wake up, for no one sleeps while it is day. No one stays asleep in the light. If u feel that you are not ready, then pray and be ready! If u lack wisdom, pray for it. The Lord knows u best, doesn't he know what to give u? But you must pray in acknowledgement of ur dependence upon his providence. I read my bible and I only see God strenthening the great men of faith. Even some of this great men were people with very human weakness such as Sansom and Peter, but yet God used them coz they hunger and thirst after God.

In your weakness God will be your strength. You heed the call, u heard the cry, so how can we delay? Be ready, stand up and be counted for. Where is the urgency?

Leading Worship this weekend

It's that kind of week again of serious preperation. To find time to set apart, to be alone and just be still before the Lord. Time to pray for wisdom and strength to do my best as I lead others to worship God. Since rejoining Camy, I realised that during rehearsals I become more subdued, less energetic. This is because I didn't want my abilities to"run the show". It's a conscience attempt to put the focus on worshipping God and not a good "performance". I am really afraid to steal the glory from God whether intentionally or not. I don't want to short-change God for a show of no eternal value, but pointint others to the Lord is of great eternal value.

This doesn't mean I will not jump to praise and worship the Lord. If my actions and word let others see the passion in my soul; to set an example for others to worship God with everything they've got; if everything I do draw them closer to Christ, I have met my objective. Leading worship or playing in the band seems like a glamourous ministry to be in, but not many people counted the cost of really serving in the ministry. If they only know what serving God entails, many people would have left the ministry. But thank God for mentors and pastors who are willing to guide the younger ones. I believe that in the midst of training and serving, there is an opportunity for personal growth.

I hope that my short spell back in the ministry have so far helped, if not I'd have considered it a wasted venture. So far so good, time to continue to trust the Lord as I serve Him with all that I've got.

"There is no coincidence

There is no compromise"

- Project 86 -

I love ma' Boyz

I thought this is a very cool picture. The missing ones are James and Kunjie, I think. (photo taken from Jeremy's friendster gallery)

Sad

It was really an honour to have "Sad" featured at the start of yesterday's youth service although the sound left little to be desired. The visuals that Jon did was very impactful. A few friends asked me to send them the song again coz it impacted them in some ways.

Sad

Why are you so happy when I feel so sad?
When the earth was shaking
Were you still in bed?
Do you care when you live in some safe haven land
Will you be sitting comfortably watch the news at 9:30

Why are you still smiling when I feel so sad?
When the waves were raging
Did you count the dead?
Do you care when you live in some safe haven land
Will you be sitting comfortably watch the news at 9:30

What could you do?
What could you possibly do?
What could you do?
Fight for some rights or some military coup?

You don't care coz you think you live in neverland
You will be sitting comfortably watch the news at 9.30

Why are you so happy when I feel so sad?

"Sad" was written and performed by The Other Side of Glory, featuring Vanessa on vocals.

Own me

U know, I've become pretty emo these days and I want to tell MOH that just because I feel like crying all the time, I am suffering from depression. Seeing those ads at the bus-stops (which serves those who are really depressed well) make me more depressed!

This is another beautiful song by Ginny Owens called "Own me". It's my prayer for the night. I put it on repeat mode while I am blogging and chatting.

Got a stack of books so I could learn how to live;
Many are left half-read covered by the cobwebs on my shelf.
And I got a list of laws growing longer everyday;
If I keep pluggin’ away, maybe one day I’ll perfect myself.
Oh, but all of my labor seems to be in vain;
And all of my laws just cause me more pain;S
o I fall before you in all of my shame;
Ready and willing to be changed

Chorus:
Own meTake all that I am,
And heal me!
With the blood of the lamb.
Mold me with your gracious hand;
Break me till I’m only yours-Own me!

You call me [son],
And take my blame;
You run to meet me,
As I cry out your name,
So I fall before you in all of my shame,
Lord, I am ready to be changed

Clearing the air

I didn't know what I was in church for today, I was suppose to park the car in churc then go out, but I had no motivation to go anywhere. I ended up helping joining the musician's training. Helped Vern play guitar with Joel as she led a short worship time. After that worship session, I didn't join the training. I went to the prayer room which used to be a store-room behind the L1 Hall to pray. I didn't know what to pray, but I knew I just wanted to be alone with God. I popped in my iPod and just kept quiet. It was a short peaceful moment. I wonder why is the prayer room so small. I hope more prayer warriors will start using that room so that the church admin will be forced to give us a bigger room for prayer.

After lunch with Amanda, Joel, Vern and Jon I came back to church. Again, I didn't know what to do. I just wanted to hang around when Ps Jimmy asked me to help do PA at L3 for Ps Paul Goulet's Seminar. It was a powerful session. So powerful that I wept as I prayed behind the boards. Is it coincidence that the PA tech didn't come? May be, but God allowed it to happen so thaI heard what Ps Goulet had to say about being married.

So how now? I have to admit, I've been so distracted by the things of this world. I really lost the plot man! Now I want to bounce back. I want to love the Lord more and I want to give Him everything I've got as I serve Him. I will persevere!

Well there's something that needs to be cleared up.
I feel so sorry inside, that my first love has died.
Cause I've tried in my own strength to follow.
When I've known all along, I just couldn't go wrong.
If I'd only trusted you, give my life to you.

Making restitution

Last night I chatted on MSN with Yixian, the new girl in Foolz, about making restitution. This afternoon, I had my own encounter too.

I called the producer of a production house who wanted to negotiate the rate which I charge for my service. At first I agreed to take on the project. She told me that she'll pay me the basic rate and that I'll have to use her sound gear. But I called her back later to tell her that I didn't like the idea of using other gears so I countered offer and said I'd prefer to use mine. She reasoned that she doesn't want to spend on something which she already has. She added that if other soundman could use what she has, why can't I? I could her disbelief in my attitude. She said if I didn't want to take the project, she'd be glad to get someone else. I told her I'll reconsider and would call her back later.

I felt really bad in my spirit coz I know the spirit of greed had consumed me. I prayed before I call back and when I did I the following

1) Thank her for considering me for the project
2) Apologise to her for my unprofessionalism
3) Ask for her forgiveness for being hard to deal with

A lot of people will think that this is the end of my working relationship with them. Perhaps I sealed my fate with them for my earlier attitude. I don't know if they'll call me again after the project ends in Feb, but I am looking forward to this project already. I thank God that I have work from Dec to January! I did my part, if they don't want to hire me next time, it's ok, coz I know God takes care of those who takes care of His business.

I am now at peace...

Grace by which I stand

This is a Keith Green classic. I've been thinking about my own growth in the Lord through the years. I wonder how I would have fallen if not for the grace of God!

Lord, the feelings are not the same,
I guess I'm older, I guess I've changed.
And how I wish it had been explained,
that as you're growing you must remember,
That nothing lasts, except the grace of God, by which I stand, in Jesus.
I know that I would surely fall away, except for grace, by which I'm saved.

Lord, I remember that special way,
I vowed to serve you, when it was brand new.
But like Peter, I can't even watch and pray, one hour with you,
And I bet, I could deny you too.
But nothing lasts, except the grace of God, by which I stand, in Jesus.
I'm sure that my whole life would waste away,
except for grace, by which I'm saved.

A bit over reacted

Yes I think I did sometimes... if not most of the time. It's so humbling to be reminded about my short comings.

But it's all good! I can still look at all of my friends in the eye and tell them...

Tell them anything! Tell them I'm sorry, tell them I love them, tell them how much I appreciate them being them, tell them I am praying for them, tell them things that will bless them...

SO many things I can say... so little time to say it, but I'll seize every chance I get and not waste it!

What now?

I have my struggles but I still need to climb this mountain. I know that whatever is waiting on top is surely worth all the battles I'm fighting; all the battles I've lost and all the battle that's wating to be won.

As I run to You, Lord, help me to also look to you!

Here is my heart, broken and trampled on.

Take it and renew it with Your with your power.

Help me stand so that I faint not.

I trust u, I really do.

My flesh may oppose you,

but I'll subject my entire being to obey you!

(This album artwork reflects the prayer above)

I lost today

Worrying about yesterday

I lost today

And No I'll never forget about you

I lost today

I just came to terms ...

On with my life

On with my life

On with my life

Excerpt from "All In A Year" by Comeback Kid

Caleb

This is Caleb, one of the up and coming drummers in church. What a great student of the instrument, I am sure he will be a master of it if he puts his heart into learning and practising. Oi, work on your strokes leh!

I'm pumped up pt.2

Aiya, I hope this one is available in Singapore!

Give Up Yourself

I was so weary this morning when I wrote an e-mail to a friend. I was sharing about how I feel about being a leader and yet have a tight hold on them. I am learning to trust the Lord and let the Lord be LORD of ALL. I've tried so many times to play God, which is such an awesome responsibility that I don't think I can last one second and get crushed under it's shere weight! The weight of this world is heavy that no man can carry except Jesus. Somehow I am greatly comforted with this fact. I can pray to Him and he lifts my burdens like he lift the world. I really can't take care of those that God has given me 24/7. But I know God will take care of them and will send others to reach out to them when I'm not around.

Every man has his belief
His own point of view
On everything from big to small
Some of them we must defend with everything we've got
Some of them don't matter much at all

You can speak up everytime and think that you were right
Hold your ground until the end
You can rattle tooth and nail with each and every fight
You might even lose some friends

But when you give up yourself
You're as strong as a man can be
It's the hardest that you would ever do
When you give up yourself
The world will clearly see
Lord Jesus walking next to you
Lord Jesus walking hand-in-hand with you

When you give up your pride
Make those conflict cease
Some folks may laugh and call you weak
It takes strength to be the one who makes the peace
It takes courage to be me

When you give up yourself
You're as strong as a man can be
It's the hardest that you would ever do
When you give up yourself
The world will clearly see
Lord Jesus walking next to you
Lord Jesus walking hand-in-hand with you

This is a song was recorded by Chris Christian in 1983. He who was credited for discovering Amy Grant.

I am pumped up!

Check out the date!! HA! Now it's my turn to have a wish list!

Here am I

This is still my prayer today. It has never cease from my spirit though my lips never utter the words. I know I need you the Lord. The Spirit of God is calling out, I want to response but sometimes the circumstances blocks the way. Sometimes, it's our selfish ways that is the greatest obstacle. The Lord is gracious and I hear Him calling me to pick up the cross to follow. I am coming back to you, Lord.

Will u follow me even though I am so prone to failure? I hope I've live my life well to show the way. Oh the Grace! Oh the Love! Oh!!!

Here am I, please take me as I am.

Help me stand, I'm weak and I am scared
The winds of change are blowing

I think I'll trust my life in Your promises

Chorus:

The world is in Your hands

You are so big yet you live inside of me

I gladly give my life to gain the crown

I never want to lose

Where I am, no one could understand

Give me strength and hope in my despair
I run into Your arms

When I feel like giving up on everyone

(Chorus)

I let u know something

Your spirit silently cries
But no one knows how your feelings
Please stop deluding your mind
You may be hurt but dun give up the fight

Baby, everything is going to be alright

Still

We are living in a world where we expect instant results.

I am reminded to be still...

Be still and know...

Know that He is God...

Shhhh...

And now I know I had to change

Had to rearranged

My whole life is messed up

I thought that no one cared

Out of nothing

You gave me a chance to

Believe in You

The Other Side of Glory