Change

I really need a changed life. There are many things that I want to do, but I have no time to accomplish them, but the things that I ought to be doing, I am doing nothing or too little about it; and the things that I ought not to do, I am doing them - more or less.

The number one thing I have to deal with at the moment is my temper. Oh my goodness, those at home sees my fuse blow out so easily, which is kept in check towards people outside the inner circle. This may surprise many, but it's really bad. I guess being family, you see the good and bad sides cos we're comfortable at home, and so we let down our guard; heighten our expectations; and think that God is not watching. This is a very humbling experience and I need to learn from my mistakes. This inner circle- the family - needs protection and my poor anger-management only weakens the ties the binds. So I better learn to control myself; praying in the spirit always; meditate in the Word again; and start being the "man of the hour" again.

Filming of the 2nd season of "Sayang Sayang" began last Friday. It's only my 2nd long-form project since "Sweet Tapioca Porridge" in the first 2 weeks of the year. Between that project and SS, I only had 8 days of random shoots. I didn't complain about that "lull" period because of the priceless time I spent at home with the boys, esp Jo-En. As for the boys, it's another experience altogether. Since the filming of SS starts mostly in the afternoon, I'll still have time to spend at home and to make amends for the time I wasted getting angry at home.