Making restitution

Last night I chatted on MSN with Yixian, the new girl in Foolz, about making restitution. This afternoon, I had my own encounter too.

I called the producer of a production house who wanted to negotiate the rate which I charge for my service. At first I agreed to take on the project. She told me that she'll pay me the basic rate and that I'll have to use her sound gear. But I called her back later to tell her that I didn't like the idea of using other gears so I countered offer and said I'd prefer to use mine. She reasoned that she doesn't want to spend on something which she already has. She added that if other soundman could use what she has, why can't I? I could her disbelief in my attitude. She said if I didn't want to take the project, she'd be glad to get someone else. I told her I'll reconsider and would call her back later.

I felt really bad in my spirit coz I know the spirit of greed had consumed me. I prayed before I call back and when I did I the following

1) Thank her for considering me for the project
2) Apologise to her for my unprofessionalism
3) Ask for her forgiveness for being hard to deal with

A lot of people will think that this is the end of my working relationship with them. Perhaps I sealed my fate with them for my earlier attitude. I don't know if they'll call me again after the project ends in Feb, but I am looking forward to this project already. I thank God that I have work from Dec to January! I did my part, if they don't want to hire me next time, it's ok, coz I know God takes care of those who takes care of His business.

I am now at peace...