"...but of Love, of Joy and of a Sound Mind."

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen. Jude 24-25

Monday, November 19, 2007

Conscientious of sin

I recently receive a well-intended e-mail from a friend to encourage me in faith. It basically want to remind us that God "overpaid a price we cannot pay" or something to that extent. At the end of the message, the writer wrote that we should be free from a conscience of sin since we're forgiven by God. It implied that while we're conscience of being sinners, we are not free in Christ. That to me is a very very dangerous view because the bible never tells us to stop being conscience of sin, but as believers filled with God's spirit we should be conscience of it as it is part of our lives to live holy lives. That includes knowing what is sin and avoid them. If we lack a conscience of sin, it will lead us licentiousness, leading to a life devoid of knowing good and evil, right and wrong. In fact, I thank God for such a conscience that is aware of sin, because it helped me live my life to the full for the Glory of God! Christ give us a renew spirit and a renewed mind, but the thought of renewing us to be like the original Adam before the fall is not what God intended for us (which He could if He wants) wasn't in the works - not yet for us at least til we're in God's Kingdom.

I dunno why, I try not to "judge" other churches, but when I receive such things I just can't shut up and say "Oh, how nice and sweet!" Coz it isn't and my spirit is disturbed, this this entry.

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Sunday, November 18, 2007

a Psalm by Precious Death

This is a song by one of the most underated and disbanded bands in Christian music, Precious Death. Their lyrics driven by singer Christopher Scott is so intelligent and inspiring. I first heard this son in 1996. To me it was a cool emo song, but I didn't really understood it's significance until I took it off the shelve again a few weeks ago and played it on my iPod. This song is called "Psalm". It's aptly named cause I am reminded about David who wrote is one of the writters of the book of Psalms. The Bible calls him a "man after God's heart". Wow! That is somehing! Spurgeon puts it beautifully when he wrote "David who with all his heart called upon his God". I weep everytime I listen to this song because I feel the singer was calling upon God with his heart. How "emo" can one get?

I cry in anguish of my inability to live up to the standard which I am utterly unable to meet if not for this Grace that abounds. The grace which we stand on solid ground. Now confidence is mine because my confidence is in Christ. My inability to save myself has caused me to surrender to the one who is able to save me. By His grace my eyes are opened through faith. Today I am something because I am nothing, yet I am everything because Jesus is everything to me. I constantly remind myself not to think I've arrived at any plattaue of stagnation. There is a mountain to climb, the Christian life is not a bed of roses. I will fail and fall again, which I pray God, pls give me the strength to stand the tests. I allow such test to come to keep me humble along the road; to keep trusting in God my only hope.


Sing to me sweetly
Come closer without making me afraid
I know I'm not better
But I'm family and You're the biggest part of me

I understand the things I've done
So don't look at the road I've run
I'm not good but there isn't anyone
Who's good the way You are
And all I have to give is gone again
Without love I wouldn't even know the truth I've found

Wait for me gently
Be patient with me O Lord
Coz I weak but I'm Yours
But please believe, please believe that I know Your grace abound
Without love I wouldn't even know the truth I've found
And all I have to give is gone again
Without love I wouldn't even know the truth I've found

I know your grace surrounds

For far too long I stand on the side and say
I know what's right but I live all wrong anyway
We all pretend that love was a game we play
It felt good when nobody cares what You say
For far too long for far too long I run from You and say
"You're not around so you don't care what I do anyway"
But in the end I see again
That all along You always were my friend
Without love I wouldn't even know the truth I've found

I know Your grace abounds!





Saturday, November 17, 2007

Prayer meeting

I took out Leonard Ravenhill's "Revival God's Way" to read when I go to work these few weeks. Everytime I read it, spiritual sweat kept pouring down my brows. My eyes literally will well up in tears as I reflect on how dead my spiritual life sometimes is in the midst of our busy schedule. What's worse is when I think about how dead our churches really are.

Ravenhill is really a man ahead of his times. The book that I mentioned was written published in 1983 and he foresaw the kind of institution the church will become 20 years later. It's scary when u realise the depravity of our condition. One thing that he constantly laments is the lack of biblical preaching and the lack of prayer. It makes me wonder how angry the worship team members become when the bassist or drummer arrives late for rehearsal or the frustration of not finding a replacement on weekend, but the pastors get elated when the 2nd level hall gets half-filled for a prayer meeting! I rejoice in those few but I wonder how it would have been if everyone is hot in their faith.

Alas, I am one that never attends the prayer meeting these days since I started working as a freelancer. But how different it was back in the days when time was more forgiving and life was less complicated. Prayer meeting was a weekly Thursday night affair back then. Our faith were young, our fervour were raw and not body stopped us from. Buit rather we spurred each other to go for it. There were such flavour to taste as we savour the goodness of our Saviour. The Prayer and Power nights are always held once a month. As if the energy garnered over those sessions will be enough to last the whole month before it gets refueled. The attitude of the church reflect the attitude of it's leaders. And we who are being led will become less like Jesus but more of our leaders whether we like it or not.

I was so appalled when they announced over the pulput that prayer meeting (whatever that's left til the new year) will be cancelled due to the busy schedule the church will be having. Why don't we cancel all the rehearsals and replace them with a prayer meeting or a revival meeting (but revival won't happen unless we start praying!)?

Guys and gals, I look at u and wonder where have u been. I always told you that serve the Lord while you are young and have all the time in the World to serve him before the busy-ness of life sets in and you hardly find your faith brighter than a flicker on a candle stick. If you are blessed with a 8 to 5 job, rejoice! Because though you are tired at the end of the day, you have time to have Christian fellowship to spur each other up! Make those fellowship part of your life just as watching the movies, going shopping are part of yours.

Watch out! Watch and prayer is the cry of the heart. Our church buildings is so beautiful, but it can be made so much more alive by prayer. O how I wish that we would be known my our prayer than our activities! Now do we see why revival doesn't tarry in our lives? Because there is a lack of prayer. Prayerlessness is the begining of a long process that leads so spiritual deadness. I have not reached there yet so I am praying and I hope you're praying with me too.

"Awake my soul when sin is nigh and keep it still awake!" - Charles Wesley

I don't believe in church when the church acts like the world
I want to find my fellow sheep but all I see is a blur

Friday, November 09, 2007

Waves

This is an improved version of "Waves".

There is so much we can do
If we want somebody to grow
Sometimes it's best to let them go
But be ready to offer a shoulder or a hand
Pray that your silence they will understand
When your words or letters don't make any sense
Line them up in the sand and let the waves wash over them

When the waves come crashing in
I cave in
Without a soul in sight
Silence fills the sea

There is so much we could say
Sometimes it's best not to stand in their way
In anger or in sadness
Emotions burn like an untamed flame
I have nothing left to say and nothing else to do
So I sit here in the water and pray that God will see you through
As I write these words in my heart and toss them to the sea
I align myself in the sand and let the waves wash over me

When the waves come crashing in
I cave in
Without a soul in sight
Silence fills the sea
When the waves come crashing in
I am left all alone
Silence fills the sea
Washes over me
When the next wave crashes in

Saturday, November 03, 2007

Killer lyrics

This is a song by War of Ages. The chorus caught my attention one day in the car and the lyrics expressed the cries of my heart when I felt a bit desperate for the Lord, yet I know He is never to far. O the joy that comes from knowing that God is everywhere even in our lowest of times makes crying out to him worth every ounce of strength just as a baby (like Chia Ee) wails for attention!


God I'm on my knees
Suffering
Is this all I am?
Please heal my pain
Lift me up
And hold me close to Your heart
How can I fail You once again?
Your love is what sustains me

"The Awakening" by War of Ages