Clearing the air

I didn't know what I was in church for today, I was suppose to park the car in churc then go out, but I had no motivation to go anywhere. I ended up helping joining the musician's training. Helped Vern play guitar with Joel as she led a short worship time. After that worship session, I didn't join the training. I went to the prayer room which used to be a store-room behind the L1 Hall to pray. I didn't know what to pray, but I knew I just wanted to be alone with God. I popped in my iPod and just kept quiet. It was a short peaceful moment. I wonder why is the prayer room so small. I hope more prayer warriors will start using that room so that the church admin will be forced to give us a bigger room for prayer.

After lunch with Amanda, Joel, Vern and Jon I came back to church. Again, I didn't know what to do. I just wanted to hang around when Ps Jimmy asked me to help do PA at L3 for Ps Paul Goulet's Seminar. It was a powerful session. So powerful that I wept as I prayed behind the boards. Is it coincidence that the PA tech didn't come? May be, but God allowed it to happen so thaI heard what Ps Goulet had to say about being married.

So how now? I have to admit, I've been so distracted by the things of this world. I really lost the plot man! Now I want to bounce back. I want to love the Lord more and I want to give Him everything I've got as I serve Him. I will persevere!

Well there's something that needs to be cleared up.
I feel so sorry inside, that my first love has died.
Cause I've tried in my own strength to follow.
When I've known all along, I just couldn't go wrong.
If I'd only trusted you, give my life to you.