How to rejoice in this state of mind?

I do not have the answer, but I do remember the times when I am extremely and supremely happy. I have forgotten how to be happy. I am too caught up in my own private little party to be bothered. Was I ever bothered by how I have been living while all those around me were crumbling because of my actions or lack of it?

Blind! Blind! Blind!
Sensitivity seared!

It took a hard KO punch to wake me up.
It took time and the only way yo redeem the lost time is to track back to where I was before I took the detour.
Do I regret it? Yes, I do.
I regret a lot of things lately. For things to turn, I must turn to the Lord. I am totally helpless now

Looking at the bigger scheme of things, GOD never let our experiences go without letting us get something out of it. I have learned never to take my family, my friends and my GOD for granted. Now I look back and I pray for the ones whose lives I have hurt. I could offer a few words of encouragement, but the pale in comparison to the healing powers of the blood of Christ. That is so reassuring and comforting. In His promises, trust I must and trust I will. Their well-being is secure in His hands. There is nothing to worry about. It is all good. It will all turn out good for the glory of God.

I look forward to that day we see each other again in celebration. Not in condemnation or in Judgement, but in love and in Christ Jesus.

Now, turn my crawl into a walk and help me run back into your arms, Jesus!



"Those with defeat on their faces are those that we must keep alive"
-Further Seems Forever

Being One With The Sound

I have been a traveller across the distance land
Bistowing a blessing on everyone that became a friend
From town to town, the climate of each place is different
It's easy to leave when the stinct is done to another one awaiting
But I am stuck to the ground
In a quiet lonesome town
Feeling something I absolutely cannot feel
But I like being here
Being one with the sound that I hear
Can I stay close to you even though I am not near?
Will u remember me when ur thoughts disappears?
So I stay stuck to the ground
In a quiet lonesome town
Feeling something I absolutely cannot feel
But I like being here
Being one with the sound...


"Those with defeat on their faces are those that we must keep alive"
-Further Seems Forever

Bring some closure to the insanity that is me

It has been an I tense 4 months ever since I had two back-to-back projects. It has been a whirlwind if activities spiritually physically and mentally. Looking back at the times, the victories, the successes, the excesses, defeats and the obsessions, it has been an incredible journey. Have I overcome them? I don't know, I might not be able to keep my promises, but one thing I am sure: to keep running the race set before me, keeping my eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. When He is at the centre, everything will come together. Amen


"Those with defeat on their faces are those that we must keep alive"
-Further Seems Forever

Relentless in the pursuit of...

What am I doing? Sometimes I feel I am outta control, but in the process feeling a tug that pull me back to keep in control of myself. So what am I pursuing in the midst of the chaos?

GOD?
PLEASURE?
MOMENTUM?
FUTURE?
JOY?
DESTRUCTION?
SELF-GRATIFICATION?
SELFLESSNESS?
SANITY?
INSANITY?
SANCTITY?

Whatever I am pursuing, I only want to do everything for God's glory. Nothing should be for my benefit. Everything is for the good of others. I must decrease. I must decrease. I must decrease so that Christ can increase in me.

So help me God!


"Those with defeat on their faces are those that we must keep alive"
-Further Seems Forever