A blur in the life of... Pt I

This was something I posted in my livejournal about my life. It was written in February 2004. This is part 1 of 3.

Don't we all go through this state of confusion sometimes? It's time like these I think about what I am living for and how I have lived so far. I don't have a good memory (thank God for that!) but I do remember how I got rededicated my life to Jesus.

I was exposed to Christianity from a very young age. I remember when I was in kindergarten, dad brought the family to watch the "Jesus" film. I don't have much recollection of my childhood except some spaking I got from mom and the games IU played and places where I roamed as a kid. But I remember very clearly while watching the cruxifiction scene, I turned around and asked dad, "Why did Jesus die?". I looked behind and I saw a lady smiling at me. I continue watching the film.

I was enrolled in YWCA kindergarten for two years. That was actually my first encounter with Christianity. Then I went to ACPS and I learn more about Jesus during chapel. I really love the singsperation. Sister's best friend Siew Geok (Ps Joyce's niece) brought her to Grace in 1983. Sister ask me to follow her one sunday. It was 9th Sept 1983. As Sunday was my cartoons day, I decided not to go the following week, but sis told me that once I go I cannot don't go. So I've been attending church every since.

Fast Forward...

I didn't do well for my PSLE and I went to St Teresa's High School(STHS). I came to STHS with a high-and-mighty attitude because after all I was from ACS. I was so snobbish and arrogant. The F-word was constantly in my mouth. I was interested in girls and Michael Jackson (The "Bad" album was the flavour of the season). In Sec 2, I was given the post of "Tria-head prefect" and I was promoted to Express. I was very proud of myself and I thought everything was going well for me. I was one of the top athletes in school and I thought I was a popular figure in school. I am known to people alright, but for the wrong reasons.

One day the head prefect Benny called me and told me to change my attitude because some of his classmates are finding my attitude a little too much for their liking. I didn't take it too seriously, but I became more concious of my own behaviour. Nothing prepared me for what to come next. One of my new friend in sec one told me that a certain dude wanted to beat me up. Now that word "beat me up" really scared the sh*t out of me and fear began to set in.

to be continued...