It was another rare weekday break for me. I woke up in full anticipation of what was to come for the day ahead.
EVen on a bad-hair day, I just had to get out into the sun, onto the beach and indulge on my favourite passtime! Yahoo!!! I prayed that it wouldn't rain when I am there.
I finally went to the beach at Sentosa for my break. I moved to a quiet are because the "more happening" part was too distracting, sure get sore-eyes, it was "HOT, HOT, HOT" but I have to set myself apart. So I walked and walked and found myself a nice spot.
These were essential stuff that I bought to Sentosa yesterday. I can't help thinking that the latest issue of Modern Drummer magazine looked like a men's lifestyle magazine!!
I was ready to have a time of life in the sun, practising on the sand, reading about not wasting my life and having great music and the occasional sms to keep me company.
I was really relaxed but I wasn't listening to any smoothing music. I was blasting Mortification thru the cans, which was so cool because I know they were proclaiming about their faith. So I place the book down for a while. The second turned to minutes and the minutes turned to rust...
...the spirit was willing but my flesh was sleepy. Even having fun can be quite tiring. On reflection about the way I spent my afternoon...
...the sun was setting and so will my life. If I do not make much of what I have I will indeed live a wasted life.
I actually had a really good time at the beach. There is absolutely nothing wrong in enjoying a good time like I did (but over-indulgent on something other than God is a sin). This was something I wanted to do since dunno when. Yes, even alone! I went to sleep under a coconut tree (with no coconut, PTL!!) and enjoyed about an hour of the sun before it started drizzling. It wasn't pouring, but just gentle drizzle that didn't make me run for shelter. Those gentle drop from the heavens was really smoothing and it brought a sense of healing to my spirit.
I don't know what tomorrow holds, but today's time alone at the beach reminded me that the Lord will provide in my time of need and in the time when I least expected. Those 4 hours at the beach had everything that I face in life.
1) There were crowded places with temptations (bikini-clad girls running/lying around where some boys were ogling over them);
2) A time to make crucial decisions. In yesterday's case was whether to stay in that "happening" spot or to go somewhere to set myself apart for God.
3) A quiet resting place where I lie in peace
4) The sunshine that provides warmth
5) The gentle drizzle to provide healing
Thanks for reading. I'll leave you with a song that I wrote on New Year's Eve in 1999. It sounds kind of dark, but it has a tinge of tranquility in it. I hope you'll like it. TOSOG will be working this as a new demo as soon as I have another break. I was suppose to do it today, but I had a last-minute job, thank God for it anyway! Time for a real eye-sore!
Made some resolutions
In my twenty something lifetime
I tried to give my best in everything
I set myself to do
Consequences of my existence proves too many times a hindrance
Endless changes given
Would you give me one more chance before I die
At the end of my lifetime
Falling tonight into your arms is my delight
Living our lives at the cutting edge of time
Pleasant memories surrounds
I chose to kick the nightmares out
They set a trap to suck the daylights out without you knowing
I will not take the easy way out
I will dance upon my failures
Thank you for your company before the time I spend with you comes to an end
At the end of my life time
Falling tonight into your arms is my delight
Living our lives at the cutting edge of time