"...but of Love, of Joy and of a Sound Mind."

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to make you stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen. Jude 24-25

Saturday, August 11, 2012

One isn't enough meh?

This current shoot I am doing now is called "Code of Law", what made this shoot different from all other shoot is that I have two wonderful friends in Cherie and Tiffany who would initiate some prayer and communion time before shoot starts. I felt for the first time a sort of cell group within the shoot. Finally some kind of prayer support for one another within one tv production.

However things seems to be taking a turn. I do not know if I want to share here because what I share will hurt and probably stumble the two of them. Then again, I doubt they read this. What I say does not matter to many people anymore. I am just a sound man.

10 August 2012, I will not forget the hurt that you have brought to me and my new extended body of Christ in COL. Gotta cover ourselves with prayer or else be miserable for the remainder of the shoot and turn an initially beautiful experience into one I want to forget.

Don't lose hope!




"Those with defeat on their faces are those that we must keep alive"
-Further Seems Forever

So weary and heavy laden

It was a party that I shouldn't have gone although it was only for a short time. I can never understand how drinking a lot of alcohol be considered a fun thing. Getting drunk is one of the most miserable feeling in the world and I certainly didn't feel any joy when drinking goes into excess. Nonetheless, I was glad that I went just to make sure that everyone was ok.

When was the last time I had this feeling of overly concerned for others. I think the last time was Oct-Nov 2010. I am still learning how to submit to God their concerns. It is not mine, but I always like to bear it on their behalf. The most disappointing is when they refuse your suggestion for a resolution. All you can do is pray. You look at their lives, they seemed ok, they talk ok, but behind the eyes and beneath the surface, I dare not look lest I judge. To judge others in this post-modern society, it is such a negative thing to do. Do I still judge? I still do. A spade is a spade, it's plain for all to see. But what lies beneath every person is only a guess.It could make or break a person. If it falls and breaks into pieces, it might hurt themselves and those around them. Perhaps I am really tired and that exhausion is making those load hard to bear. I need your bear hug now, Lord. I am so broken inside without your empowerment.

Lord, they are yours.
I have nothing to worry about
Because you hold their lives in your loving hands
And you tell me, "It is ok"

Monday, August 06, 2012

Evening Meditation

Monday, August 06, 2012


This Evening's Meditation


C. H. Spurgeon




"Let the whole earth be filled with His glory; Amen, and Amen."—Psalm 72:19.

HIS is a large petition. To intercede for a whole city needs a stretch of faith, and there are times when a prayer for one man is enough to stagger us. But how far-reaching was the psalmist's dying intercession! How comprehensive! How sublime! "Let the whole earth be filled with His glory." It doth not exempt a single country however crushed by the foot of superstition; it doth not exclude a single nation however barbarous. For the cannibal as well as for the civilized, for all climes and races this prayer is uttered: the whole circle of the earth it encompasses, and omits no son of Adam. We must be up and doing for our Master, or we cannot honestly offer such a prayer. The petition is not asked with a sincere heart unless we endeavour, as God shall help us, to extend the kingdom of our Master. Are there not some who neglect both to plead and to labour? Reader, is it your prayer? Turn your eyes to Calvary. Behold the Lord of Life nailed to a cross, with the thorn-crown about His brow, with bleeding head, and hands, and feet. What! can you look upon this miracle of miracles, the death of the Son of God, without feeling within your bosom a marvellous adoration that language never can express? And when you feel the blood applied to your conscience, and know that He has blotted out your sins, you are not a man unless you start from your knees and cry, "Let the whole earth be filled with His glory; Amen, and Amen." Can you bow before the Crucified in loving homage, and not wish to see your Monarch master of the world? Out on you if you can pretend to love your Prince, and desire not to see Him the universal ruler. Your piety is worthless unless it leads you to wish that the same mercy which has been extended to you may bless the whole world. Lord, it is harvest-time, put in Thy sickle and reap.

Sunday, August 05, 2012

Those we have left behind

A precious little one touched based with me and I below is the exchange of messages between us. I was so moved by her recollection and relief that she is doing ok as an adult now.

Is there someone that you have neglected? Is there someone that you ought to show concern to? The ones that have been forgotten. The ones that doesn't fit into your mold, when you were not loving enough to have compassion because they are a problem to the dynamics of the group than anything. The ones that were outcast because you cast them out. There is a time to love and time to let go. Before those times arrives, we should be more patient and forebearing.

Compassion - Look at them, not to pitty them, but to feel for the circumstances they are in.

Love - Because perfect love cast out all fears, including the fear of being betrayed by them, the people who you have poured out your life on.

Understanding - Being aware of their circumstances and discerning how they got themselves in to the situation.

Emphathy - Be in their shoes, walk with them

Sympathy - Be their friend, weep or rejoice with them.

These are the CLUES to loving them, not only back to the group, but back to Jesus. Back to Jesus based on our love for Jesus that compels us to reach out to them.


Hi Lyd,

I think it is appropriate to finally share this song I wrote almost 8 years ago. It was inspired by my personal experience with you. Where ever you are now and what ever you are doing, I thank God that you kept in touch with me. It is God's way of assuring me that He has taken care of you. The last person I am now looking for is Karen. Yes, the Karen from Glenn's and Benji's group.

http://soundcloud.com/tosog/stars

Hey Jenn,

This FB page of mine is the active one...i dont quite use the other one anymore...

You were always good to me and you were always real towards me and to me. Every time I think of moments we hung out was times at the cafe in city hall when you got me to sing a song impromptu! and at ngee ann having lunch-that crazy ass chicken chop plus mash plus omelette!! all great moments. happy moments. and i didn't have alot of that at that time, i was a very trouble teen going adult, very confused...
and you never judged me. you had always been a good friend.
i am sorry that i've lost touch but here's me and the last 4 plus years...when i get back we must catch up and you must meet george coz he's bloody amazing of a partner....=)

cheers jenn....

xo,
lYds

p.s.: thank you for the song. it's beautiful, thank you.