So weary and heavy laden

It was a party that I shouldn't have gone although it was only for a short time. I can never understand how drinking a lot of alcohol be considered a fun thing. Getting drunk is one of the most miserable feeling in the world and I certainly didn't feel any joy when drinking goes into excess. Nonetheless, I was glad that I went just to make sure that everyone was ok.

When was the last time I had this feeling of overly concerned for others. I think the last time was Oct-Nov 2010. I am still learning how to submit to God their concerns. It is not mine, but I always like to bear it on their behalf. The most disappointing is when they refuse your suggestion for a resolution. All you can do is pray. You look at their lives, they seemed ok, they talk ok, but behind the eyes and beneath the surface, I dare not look lest I judge. To judge others in this post-modern society, it is such a negative thing to do. Do I still judge? I still do. A spade is a spade, it's plain for all to see. But what lies beneath every person is only a guess.It could make or break a person. If it falls and breaks into pieces, it might hurt themselves and those around them. Perhaps I am really tired and that exhausion is making those load hard to bear. I need your bear hug now, Lord. I am so broken inside without your empowerment.

Lord, they are yours.
I have nothing to worry about
Because you hold their lives in your loving hands
And you tell me, "It is ok"