Stepping up to the microphone

R-age has been in my mind lately. A dear sister was sharing that she had left your ministry and she is having a wilderness experience as she wanders to find a church that could feed her spiritual needs. She is not irreplaceable in the ministry and there are always another one that God has prepared to takeover the vacant role. There is never a lack of passionate people in R-age, but if that passion for God does not translate to a passion for His Word and His people love. Passion is synonymous to love. One cannot have a passion for something you do not love for without love, they ain't nothin'.

I remember the younger ones in my days. How we spot the young and potential ones and train them up to be leaders and how heartbreaking to see these very leaders not live up to their potential as they grow older and as the world's influence on them becomes stronger than the church's. I sometimes do not fault the young, they are still young! Some of them were never ready to shoulder the responsibility of that kind of leadership. Overtime, they prefer a different kind of life and chose to walk away. I will never say it is the fault of the leaders. The kids spend more time at school or at play more than in church, cell or prayer. Therefore, it is never a surprise. The youth leaders can only do so much to influence them. At the end of the day, it is only a tough way of God finally setting apart the ones that mattered. It was painful to see it happen in my days. I am sure the present leaders feel the same way when they lose one of their own too.

Praying for u guys!! Stay on course!




"Those with defeat on their faces are those that we must keep alive"
-Further Seems Forever

Thank God!

Jo-En had his second uninterrupted sleep of the week. Friday night was the first. Thank God for healing Him and for persistent and
Loving grandmother (my mother-in-law) and auntie (SW's 3rd sis). His skin feels like baby's skin again and I can't stop touching hits hands or caressing his cheeks. Now that the skin condition is under controlled, I have to work hard on his behaviour (and that of Josh's, despite his autism). They were both on top of eir game last night during "Bingo Time" and both of them were screaming at each other and forgot about their turn-taking etiquette. It was loud! I like to think that this is a retribution of some sort for the way I behaved as a kid towards my parents and my sister. Oh, just bring it on! I love the challenges of parenting already!

On the work front, I was being led to believe that I was going to do a major documentary in Borneo when a producer called me to book me in Apr and May. She even asked for my travel document details, but to my dismay, she did not confirm anything for e next 3 weeks until I gave her an ultimatum. She later informed me that I could be released from the dates because the client did nt respond to her. I had a major "WTF" feeling because I passed over two work: one was a drama for the web and another was an independent feature film. I felt deceived by the producer for not being forthcoming with the facts. I would've taken the other job if I knew she was in the "quoting" process. Next time, I'll be wiser and a contract will come in handy. That way, they will not dare to tie me down for nothing.

The next half of 2012 looks promising with a few feature film productions potentially happening. I just bight the Sound Device 788T through Maestro Tay Chee Wei (He shared a really great story about his experience in New York, which I find very inspiring). I will be giving it a run the Wed during BK's short film shoot.

i am looking forward to another easy week of work and play (with my kids). I love such period of "lull" in my schedule before the heavy work schedule overwhelms me again. Nos is the moment to make much of the time I have in my hands. I am learning to become more a effective dad and a more productive Sound Mixer. It can only get better from this day no matter what happens because God is in Control.

I am off to church to play for the Sunday services. Caleb tuned the 12" perfectly. I am enjoying it a lot!

SOLI DEO GLORIA!

Heart break!

One of my besties visited the house yesterday. We had a good long chat about stuff, but one thing that he told me about still echoes in the chambers of my heart: Betrayal by some one whom u have poured your life out on. To make my heart's chamber shake, there are the those dem losers who believed in the accusations and became a serious torn in the flesh which I have no qualm of cutting them out from my life altogether. What immaturity! What a bunch of hypocrites that listens to remours with0ut first clarifying it with the victim? They acted like they have done before when they were school girls! Now, they are almost in the mid-20s and they are still behaving like that! All the years of investment in their lives have been a waste if they do not change their ways.
I love my boy. He said something that warms my heart. "I will not confront him or the hearers as an act of love towards him". His INTEGRITY will prevail and all those remour monger will be shamed by their thirst for such things. Thank God I have moved on, if I am still at where he is, I will no doubt make my feelings known.
TMD!

Encountering God

I am encountering God again in my wilderness. The first wilderness was when Josh's condition which we have. now come to terms with and still praying for God's intervention in Josh's life. The new wilderness is Jo-En's eczema and allergies. We ar eon our wit's end. We are clueless to his seemingly worsening condition after taking all the precaution in his diet and keeping him moisturised constantly. SW and I are tired. Very tired and very weary. The burden is heavy. I am praying for a miracle. I am going back to my pentecostal roots to seek for deliverance from this mess that the fallen world has created. I am claiming God's word on the lives of my children and my wife. I am praying and believing. Yet I am thoroughly aware of God's sovereignty over all things for the joy of all men. I do not want to doubt, I believe. I have not done these things for a long time since freelancing. Work has caused me not to do the things I need to do most, namely in prayer, reading the Bible, meditaion on what I read and listening to God.
I am so tired, Lord.
I will trust in You as I lay my weary soul to sleep.