Rebirth of an old band

I had an unbelievable experience jamming with Ben and Glenn last Friday. This We'll be jamming as a full and with Cindy joining us. Officially it's only the 3rd time we're getting together, but the first time as a quartet. However I still find the line-up incomplete unless we either add a keyboardist or anothe guitarist. Nonetheless, we're not complaining but making much of a trio with a singer. I think I better not have too much expectations lest everything fall on me like a brick wall. Every good gift is from above and whether we make it or not will be for the glory of God.

Excited for nothing?

If I set my heart out to accomplish something, I put in 110% into it despite the father-time I need to do to the two Chipmunks. So far the band only had one jam session at the house and all we had been doing is sharing demos and talking about what we want to do as a band in the coming days. Yes, day. Everyone is busy and it's hard to get everyone to set aside a day in the week to practice I dun even want to ask everyone to do that. But I have aspirations for the band. I told Cindy that I want to practice and write music, then record them for posterity.

I intend to ask James for use of his DTX-term to track the drums with the AW2400 as he main recorder. I think it's a great idea! This really got me excited. That's why I am looking forward to the first full band onslaught later at Jurong East without Cindy. Benjamin will be joining us on bass. I will not be critical of him for now because I am also nowhere near ready on the drums.

Ok, I better not expect too much from the others. I just hope that I could convince them to at least stay long enough until we could at least record 5 songs. I am not expecting ourselves to gig. I am over that phrase. If we get one, good. If not, I will not regret that.

As for now, I just want to enjoy the moment and enjoy the process of doing the band thing again.

A grief for unbelief

I was having a conversation about spirituality with some guy during a break from my production when one of the girls in the production team shared a familiar story (a story familiar and sad to Christians I mean) with us. He was saying how he believes every religion is good and are the same. At that point the girl shared her story. Let me share what I remembered from her experience:

I once met this evangelist and I asked him if I do am a good person who doesn't kill, doesn't do a single bad thing though I am not a Christian, will I go to hell when I die? He said "yes" and I told him, "Fuck you! I am not going to listen to you anymore!" and I walked away.

After a while she left to do some other stuff elsewhere and I knew I had to say something in relation to his statement about universalism and the girl's story. I told him, "Yes, all religions are good, but Christianity is different because Jesus said that He is the Way, the Truth and the Life. That doesn't make Christianity a good religion."

About the girl who shared her experience, she is a real sister; someone I got to know well in the course of work. Alarm bells were ringing when she recalled that story - a desire to share Christ with her burned brighter at that moment. I am praying that she will know God in Christ Jesus some day and bask in the glory of the God she once indirectly said "Fuck You" to.

Thinking about Lydia

I was randomly looking at the friends list in my FB account and I thought about Lydia Wong. She hasn't updated her FB page since January this year. I wonder how she has been. That girl!

God's goodness in our worst of times

‎"God's people have always in their worst condition found out the best of their God. He is good at all times; but He seems to be at His best when they are at their worst."

-C. H. Spurgeon

How He Loves

Check out this song!!
Janice let me hear David Crowder's version this song when we were travelling up to KL for the Malaysian leg of "Homecoming". Liang tagged me this video on YouTube performed by the original songwriter, John Mark McMillan. This live version is the bomb and it really gave me a great spiritual awakening - the kind I have not felt in a long time. I savoured the moment I was watched it for the first time because tears were welling in my eyes and I could totally relate to the words that John was singing. Words like "afflictions eclipsed by glory" and my favourite is the entire verse 2:

"We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way He loves us"

WOAH! What a song!! I learned it on the guitar almost immediately. Just 4 chords. Simple but effective! What an inspiration. Helped me to look forward to the new day with a renewed spirit. It helped me articulate the words I longed to tell God in my prayers. What great timing! Wow Wee!!

How to plant a Figtree

A new Figtree has been planted. The seedling is growing. The potential in it is great. I am looking forward to the next gathering of a new singer and two old boys. I feel like a kid again!!
:)

Oh, To Feel Him

On Sunday, I put in the Neal Morse Testimony DVD and let Jo-En watch "Oh To Feel Him" and it was at the same time a worship session for me as I sang along to the chorus.

And I knew it was him
I knew it was Jesus
Like the wind you cannot see
I felt his spirit touching me
And oh, to feel, to feel him
I knew this was Jesus
There my heart was cleansed of sin
I could have the world but oh, to feel him
To feel him

Oh, to feel him, I can feel Jesus
Like the day of Pentecost
His love poured out to all the lost
And oh, to feel him, oh to feel Jesus
The power of his love inside
Letting all my pain be crucified

Oh, to feel him, oh, to feel Jesus
There my heart was cleansed of sin
I could have the world but oh, to feel him
To feel him

Why so angsy Jenn?

I am so out of control. So out of the control of the Holy Spirit. My thought life is in ruins. I am not feeding my mind with the right things. If I continue to struggle, I feel I will suffocate and die under the weight of my burdens. What burdens? In the hands of God, they are nothing but feathers, but yet when it's on my back, they are like a sack of bricks! The wrong thoughts begats wrong behaviour and those wrong behaviour gave birth to indifference in the things of God.

In a way, I thank God for this struggle because I know it will do me good if I learn from it and move on to victory. The problem with me is I have no patience. I always want a quick fix to things; I always wanted things to go my way, but life doesn't always go the way we want. By God's grace he has used circumstances and people to speak to me, all unexpected just like Balaam's donkey. It's a very humbling experience I must add.

I will not give up!

Delay No More

We're suppose to resume production this Tuesday. The latest news is out that we might start on Thursday instead. It totally destroys the rhythm that we have already started in KL. Really don't like long breaks in the middle of a production. I just hope that with a longer break means there will be better planning and thus a less troublesome shoot.

So delay no more!