He's all I need

"He's all I need
He's all I need
Jesus is all I need"

Yesterday Ps Lim preached about the importance to have fellowship in the body of Christ. He quoted the song and said that the statement is not true because we need each other to grow, to admonish and to affirm. In context of the theme of fellowship, I agree to a certain extent, however above all else, Christ must still be all that we need. For without Christ, our fellowshipping; all the affirmation, encouragement or confession are nothing if not for Christ. To fellowship with real meaning is to do all that we do so that God is most glorified thru our efforts and it is for Christ that we are living for and it's His glory that we only desire. I may fulfill my fellow-man's need, but if Jesus is not all that I needed, then everything that I do has no meaning. The strength of a Christian comes from relying totally in Christ. Even if I do things with our own strength, we give God glory for it is God that give us the blessing of a healthy body or a creative mind. If Christ is not everything then all our efforts will amount to nothing no matter how successful we are in the eyes of man.

You're all I need

You're all I need

- The Kry -

Those whom it might concern

Still on fire after all these years

1) To those who wished me "Happy Birthday", thanks!

2) To those who forgot, nevermind. Everyday I am a day older, we can celebrate that too.

3) To those who didn't know today is my birthday, now you don't have anymore excuses.

4) To those who knew but deliberately ignore it, see (3)

5) To those who knew and still act blur, see (2).

6) To those who remembered and said a simply prayer for me, see (1)

My Pandan Baby

That's my "Pandan Baby" at KK hospital. He looked really hip in that uniform because it was too big for him. Because of the green uniform, I called him "Pandan Baby" while he was there. He is recovering now though he is still wheezing a bit.

Some friends told me to claim healing for him or declare him free from illness in Jesus name. I know they meant well, but I just smiled and said "yeah". In my heart I was simply praying "I will go to the valley if You want me too" (Ginny Owen's "If You want me to"). I dare not twist the arm of God to demand anything from Him. The least that I could do is to pray "Lord, Thy will be done". The Psalmist might have declared that the favour of the Lord went before him like a shield, but I see the life of Paul in Acts. Didn't he he suffer hardship but yet throught it all, his affliction was considered nothing next to the Glory of Christ in Him and in Heaven. In Paul's suffering, God's favour was still upon him. In his affliction he toiled for the sake of the gospel and reaped a greater reward from God.

I dare not demand, but that doesn't mean I do not pray. Some might accuse of me of being faithless, I say I have more faith that them because my faith is not based on good circumstances (May this statement stand the test of time). Now Joshie is home, he is a "Pandan Baby" no more because he is home. He is back to where he belong, at home as my "Little Pudding Baby" or "Lychee Baby". What shall I eat now? Pudding Ears of Pudding Nose? Or may be squeeze some Lychee Juice out of his chubby face.

Oh how the years go by

It's been a great and awesome journey so far. I was driving home from the hospital this evening and SW mentioned a phrase she told my dad sometime back about spending time with the family is "not about the food we eat but the company that we keep." Gone were the days when I long to be with my youths or my friends. Now I just want to be with SW and Chia Ee, SW's or my folks. Nothing matters more than being a tight and warm family.

I used to wonder why my former sunday school teachers stopped teaching anymore. When u are married, your priorities change. Does that mean my passion for R-age has died? May it never be because I am still praying for them. I still ask about how it's been doing.

I received some really nice "I miss u" smses which really touched me. Now that I have committed myself to my family, have I left a legacy in R-age for others to follow? Have I been a worthy bearer of Christ's name? Have others risen from their ashes to cover the space that was left vacant by me? I can never be the one to answer that. As much as I love those "I miss u" messages, I really long to hear about the good work carrying on despite my absence coz I am proud of my little input and the lives that I've the privilege of serving with and be of some kind of blessing to; some directly and others indirectly.

I am very excited about the current crop of leaders there are now. It's our 10th anniversary this year, it'll be a year to be remembered.

Pls continue to pray for Chia Ee, he is recovering well but is still in KK for observation. We hope to bring him home tomorrow. He is smiling, laughing and kicking more today. That's a very encouraging sign. Pray that he will be protected against Asthma attacks in future, as I have a history of that as a kid. It's really not funny when we heard him wheezing last night, but we can rejoice now because the He is in the Lords healing hands.

Proverbs 24

17Do not rejoice when your enemy falls,
And do not let your heart be glad when he stumbles;

18Or the LORD will see it and be displeased,
And turn His anger away from him.

MacArthur commented that gloating over the enemy's woes can be more serious than the sin of the enemy. So I must pray for them and not gloat or rejoice when they falters.

Prov 24

1Do not be envious of evil men, Nor desire to be with them;

2For their minds devise violence, And their lips talk of trouble.

19Do not fret because of evildoers
Or be envious of the wicked;

20For there will be no future for the evil man;
The lamp of the wicked will be put out.

Money no enough

I had a great time hanging out with Joey on Tue evening. He reminded me that there is no end to the money that we earn and to put my focus on eternal values. It's a timely reminder in view of what I shared in the previous post. I must admit that the monetary gain sometimes obscure my vision. That is why it's so vital to keep on doing bible study, go to church and have Christian fellowship. There has been friends who have gone off the course because they thought they could do without the "church" thing. Why is that so? It's simple, they simply stop doing the things that helped keep their focus.

I love my job

Yesterday I had some reaction that sent some shock waves through my systems. I was chatting with the cameraman that I was working with. I learned that there are those in the industry who form fraternities and they will exclusively work with these close knitted group of people if they have they can help it. This is very helpful way of helping one another in the industry. I do not belong to any of these groups, but when I realised that it existed, I had a panic-attack. I suddenly wonder if I'll ever have work in face of such "competition". Then I calmed down and pondered: hasn't the Lord been providing me with work week after week for the past two year? Why worry? There is nothing to worrk about but it did highlight a problem in my attitude. My motivation could be swayed and think nothin but money.

Dang! That a shock to my system because my conscience warned me not to sway in my focus. The Holy Spirit jolt in my system really helped me a great deal, if it hasn't I'll be worried and doing silly things to PR and solicit for work. Oh Jenn, live and walk by faith continually!!

The Lord is good and He takes care of those who are His. I am forever grateful for the blessings, failures and trials that He sent my way. Whether in good or bad times, God has always been good. I there is nothing to worry about, I do not need to conform myself to this world's pattern to be successful. I will only conform myself to word of God and pray that besides getting work, I'll also be sowing the gospel seeds and reaping part of God's great harvest.

Proverbs 23: 4-5a

Do not weary yourself to gain wealth,
Cease from your consideration of it.
When you set your eyes on it, it is gone...

Did I just played my last?

After being in church with SW and Chia Ee for Christmas and New Year's Eve, the first Sunday of the year alone at Grace 2 was rather "lonely". I have never felt this way before. Now that I am not in cell ministry anymore, the next to go might be playing for the main services and Camy. Today I played with Leon's/ Cynthia's team. If today is the last, it so apt because Cynthia was the woship leader that I grouped with when the grouping system started about 10 years ago. For Camy, Johann said that Jon has some plans which I have yet to hear about, so I'll wait and see.

I must add that Leon is going to be a great worship leader in Grace. I really enjoyed his leading and the bond we build as friends and musicians in the short time we have together. Today's worship session at G2 was definitely something. From a drummer's perspective, I played traditional grip with the pair of sticks that Jon gave me which was super light, coz James said that the 7As are too loud (even with Trad grip). In the end, it turned out really well. What made the morning even sweeter was the choir. Oh, I felt like I was in Heaven again!

Finished old song

We want to go where no one has gone before
We searched high and low but we found nothing more
And all we ever wanted was to catch a glimpse of you
The world is looking for a sign but you stood silently stood

Radio my heart and tell me which way to go
Bring to my mind the words I kept in my soul
And all we ever wanted was for a chance to be renewed
You’ve given me a brand new heart so I can be more like You

So open the gates
Lord, let Your Glory fall
As You hear the praise begins
We are so busy but when glory fall
We fall in worshipping
Forever, forever

And all we ever wanted was a chance to be with You
To catch a glimpse of what it means when the angels sing to You

So open the gates
Lord, let Your Glory fall
As You hear the praise begins
We are amazed but when glory fall
We fall in worshipping
Forever, forever

Released

I had a meeting with CX this afternoon and what a meeting it was. In that meeting she affirmed me about my spiritual gifts and released me from my RL role. Due to my irregular working schedule, she asked me to take on a mentoring role which doesn't require me to meet every sunday. We even discussed about how I could be a better mentor by pointing out a serious mistake I made when I had a session with someone a few months ago. I really appreciate it and I must admit. It's never easy thru a session listening to your own faults. But it's so vital as a leader, because if I cease to learn and think that I know it all, I lose my credibility and responsibility. I have so much to learn esp from some of the leaders that I look up to (some of them are even younger than me!). I really look forward to this role.

What a way to beginm the new year!

I visited ARPC's watch night service at The Neptune Theatre(the real last event there). After Chris Chia's awesome preaching, we watched the fireworks outside the theatre and left there in a hurry, but guess what? I was pushing Chia Ee's pram that I forgot my own waist pouch. In it is my Bible, notebook (with lyrics for 2 new songs... that's a double whamy!) and my digital cam. I didn't realised it was missing until the next day about late afternoon. How blur can I get? Oh God, don't let Chia Ee be like me!!

We've been been bringing E E out on own own recently to church (for services and weddings) and we're coping very well and getting use to his habits. I really love those times we bring him out. Gotta cherish these times because when he starts walking or talking, it'll be another kind of fun and headache. Bring it on, I say!!

On a more serious note, I've been thinking about my ministry involvement for this year. I am meeting CX tomorrow and until I meet her, I'll just leave it as it is now.

Blessed New Year, my friends!

:)X