Never felt like this for a long time

I am feeling a cocktail of emotions these days. Some made me feel glad while others made me feel like crap. But some emotions are worth sharing about.

Last Thursday I swop shift with Randy so that I could be in church at 7.30 for worship practice. I had just worked 12 hours that day and was feeling really tired, but I really wanted to play drums again after a one-month long break. Then today I thought I played well and it was encouraging to hear the choir say that my playing helped bring up the level musically. This is a testament to God's gift of playing the drums despite my lack of practice. That said, I will continue to explore ways to inprove my time and creativity on the drums away from the drums. That's a challenge and a one that I do not mind being troubled by.

SW, Joshie and I visited Soann and Clement to see their new daughter. It was good to see Joshie hanging out with the other kids (Daniel and Evan came later with their 2 kids). Oh btw, Soann made an observation; of all the 10 kids in the cell group, there are only 3 boys and the three are fathered by 2 St Teresians. How cool man! wahahaha...

As for another emotion, a darker side, I have not felt that since 2 years ago. This is the side the seems to bring out the creative side of me. It was during this time 2 years ago that I composed and recorded "Run to You". So u roughly the emotion I was feeling. It's a kind of desperation to keep myself from stumbling in my walk with the Lord. Oh to please Him and to do His will is all I want to do, but in this life it's so hard. Yet it's so comforting to know the promises of God and the joy that comes from persevering in faith and to lay every thought of mine captive to the obedience of Christ. It's a struggle I had before and I came out victorious, but scarred. Oh Jenn, Jenn, do not give up in the race.

This programme that I am involved in has been physically draining. The cam and sound crew only work for 12 hours, but I really feel for the episode producers. They had to be there from the morning til night. RESPECT man!

Speaking of the ep producers. This is a big shout out to Maureen who is an assistant producer. I always rejoice and thank the Lord for allowing me to meet fellow believers in the industry. What I find cool about her was that while she was studying in LA, she attended Grace Community Church (John MacArthur's church lah). She reminds me of Rachael Lim and Serene Goh coz they are the same age and it made me miss my days in R-age. Well, I am not just Christ's ambassador in the church, but also outside the church too.