Humbled
I chatted with many people tonight, but two chat is worth mentioning coz I was totally floored by their opinion about me. You know sometimes we hear others say we should not be affected by what others think about us? That is not true at all. Sometimes I am so blinded by my own cleverness I can be too proud for my own good. Initially I posted an entry that was rather controversial. So I shared them with these two person and asked for their opinion. While they read it, I read it myself. After reading it, I erased the poste. There is nothing bad about it, but it shows an error in my behavior. I tend to speak to fast without thinking. Very often I confuse others, stumble them or hurt them without knowing. I am glad that certain characteristics about me were brought up. I have given people the impression that I am rather "hardcore". An uncompromising person who shares his opinion strongly. To be frank, I wish I have more discernment and wisdom so that I know when to speak and when to wait and when to just forget about it. If I am hardcore, I hope to be hardcore for the truth. Not for myself.
I don't like myself very much! It's so full of pride!
I want more of Christ and less of me.
I can't stand me!
Help me LORD!
3 Comments:
hey Jenn. been reading ur blog. like ur unabashness and uncompromising attitude when it comes to ur faith. It's encouraging. i believe we all have our experiences w God unique to ourselves. perhaps others dont understand why u feel so strongly for or against something. i guess it is not a matter of who's right and who's wrong. everybody could be right or everybody could be wrong. cos what's reality to u is real. that however might not be someone else's reality. take heart brother. continue to press on. ur posts've been a blessing to me, really. shows me a different aspect of God. =)
-serene
To the two commentators (I erased the first one at the request of the commentator)
Dear friend,
I understand the intent of that post. Rest assured that I know my position in Christ. I was just speaking out of weakness. In my weakness, I know Christ is my source of strength. Thanks, man!
Serene,
Thanks for the encouragement. Next time I have to be sure than be sorry. If others don't understand my thoughts, I feel obligated to explain. And it's not just my thoughts. Like u said, they are real and to me truth. I get excited when truth is illuminated before my eyes. The word literally becomes a "light unto my path".
I will press on.
:) if u desire to be more like Christ, He will surely enable you. SURELY. i see ur heart bro. :)
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