Why so like that?

I read MacArthur's "Charismatic Chaos" and Jack Deere's "Surprised by the power of the Holy Spirit". Two books on two opposite sides. If you are weak, u'll be confused. So how do I deal with miracles and gifts of the Spirit, etc? At the end of the day, when all saliva is spent and all voices go course, what is left is this. Have we bore fruits in accordance to our salvation?

While I do not want to limit God work over my life, I'll continue to stick on to the Word for now.

TEACH ME YOUR WAYS O GOD!