Bearer of His Name

I read this from a "Desiring God" blog post.

It seems like a direct rely from God to my prayer in my previous post. All I could do is to respond in praise and in awe of God whom I trust to take care of my family's every need. Like the song from Hillsong goes "We look to Yaweh! Our hope is Yaweh! And He shall reign forever". Forever - long after we are gone, in the lives of Josh and Jo-en.

What about now? Am I a obedient bearer of His name? Frankly speaking, I am ashamed of myself if you peel my brain to see what I am thinking about every waking day. How much of the world is in me reflects my priorities. I admit that only in the past few days that I decided to make much of my life once again to make much of Christ in my life. My passion for the glory of God for the joy of all people in Christ Jesus should not be limited only when I am in the company of believers. As I work "in the world", all the more I should translate that passion into action and words. How did this re-awakening start? Believe it or not, it's during this current production of the second season of "The Pupil" and two interns.

Through my chat with them, I am glad learn that they are from the Department of FIlm Sound and Video, Ngee Ann Poly. Through the music that I blast on from my iPad, I found out that they are Christians too. After hearing about how the interns from my previous production in April were demoralized by discouraging attitudes and words by the production house's boss (which doused their fire to pursue a career in Tv and Film), I am learning to appreciate our interns; to speak about the harsh realities of e industry, but also to offer hope and dispense joy through our work. Yes! Dispensing joy even in the midst of placing a lav mic on person or while booming and mixing. Even in the tired late nights when we go over-time. Light of reality can sometimes be so dim, so why not add some light to lighten the moment. That is what Christ does through us. He gives us a purpose to carry on; a kind of second wind. And this I want to share to these interns and anyone I meet. These interns are young, about 19-20 yrs old. They remind me of my 9 years of ministry in the R-age (youth ministry in Grace Assembly of God). There are still people to impart knowledge to, to dispense joy to, to worship with, to affirm, to encourage! There are also the non-Christians whom I work with, for whom our lives might be the only testimony for Christ they may ever encounter due to the so-called "progressive" thinking of our day. This industry has become my ministry ground. Therefore I am watching my words and actions. In the midst of my personal struggles, there is still a world who needs to know Jesus. I may be carrying a burden, but it is light because Jesus carried the worse lot and I am carry the best lot.

I may not see a physical street of gold in this present world, nor will I experience a time when Josh and I will have a decent conversation, but I look forward to the life outside this time and space; when I enter eternity and walk upon those streets of gold and have a glorious chat with my little boy. That hope is what I yearn for and with this hope in me, I want to a bearer of His name despite being me.

SHINE!