I am a servant

I watched "Heave" and I was glad that the sound for that short-film didn't turn out that bad. I kind of like the overall feel of it too. The set that we played was ok. Vern had a lot of positive comments about her singing. The audience were very appreciative and encouraging. I like that. We know we are capable of better performance. So here is to our future endaevours!

I think I just went thru the motion of playing today. I wasn't hyped up, I was cautious about how we'd sound. Moreover I was so tired after a long day in church. Nonetheless what I enjoy most about today is the fellowship we had during lunch and at The Third Place. I was so surprised to know that one of the actor, Jamie, runs that place and the guys were all so familiar with him coz of their involvement in the E-gig. See Youth Ministry is so fun!

Yesterday I talked to Lonnie and he asked me about how was my full-time plan. Ps ronald asked me too. It was really wierd. I wonder if I need to go to Bible School to be in full-time and if I need to join a church or para-organisation to be in full-time? I do not think so for both of them. I believe that I am already in ministry but not in the way like those two groups I mentioned. Seriously, I don't think it's time yet. I am still praying for discernment and wisdom to make sure I am living right before the Lord. I want to be His servant I want to follow His way and be the best in what I do. God has given me a lot of talent and I know I can't stretch myself. Lonnie reminded me that since I can't split myself, I could disciple or mentor others to do so. Ah! That's something that I have neglected. I was so concerned bout my own growth that I neglected my disciples. Yet I know that before I share with them, I must be ready. I know I can't be completely ready, but I know I have been equiping myself for such task. While there are still so many things to learn and so many set-backs or successes to look forward to, am I ready now to take up the challenge? I don't want to see it as a challenge, I just want to know that I am doing His will and that it glorifies and pleases Him.

I just want to obey u, Lord!

I am a servant,
I am listening for my name,
I sit here waiting,
I've been looking at the gameThat I've been playing,
and I've been staying much the sameWhen you are lonely,
you're the only one to blame.

I am a servant,
I am waiting for the call,
I've been unfaithful,
so I sit here in the hall.
How can you use me when I've never given all,
How can you choose me when you know I'd quickly fall.

So you feed my soul and you make me grow,
And you let me know you love me.
And I'm worthless now, but I've made a vow,
I will humbly bow before thee.
O please use me, I am lonely.

I am a servant getting ready for my part,
There's been a change, a rearrangement in my heart.
At last I'm learning, there's no returning once I start.
To live's a priveledge, to love is such an art
But I need your help to start,
O please purify my heart, I am your servant.

- "I am a servant" by Larry Norman