Fig-gering our our songs at Beat Merchants

We had a mad jam last night because we jammed or two hours from 11pm to 1am. After that We had tea til about one. This would be the last time I am doing this because of health reasons. Some of you know that I am asthmatic and if I hang out too late and laughing now and then, I will start wheezing and with these guys, there are a lot of laughter in the studio. It's serious work when we try to nail down a song, but when we goof it up, it's really hillarious! I think I brought the condition upon myself. Ever the one who likes to laugh, I'd pick on a band member and laugh the loudest. Then I start to feel some shortness of breath and so I calmed down a bit.

Jamming at such unearthly times is quite an experience because it took me almost an hour to feel warm-up! Thus the most fruitful time of the jam was from 12 to 1. We've gained much ground and confidence, not to win My Show 07, but to put up a good show. Alas, but Glenn, our magic finger, was the first to draw lots for the order of play drew #1 (out of 8 bands)!! Being the first band has it's good and bad. However I am hope that we play well enough to impress the crowd and judges. Oh, it's going to be exciting!!! I feel younger again with all these excitement about gigging and performing. I was born to be a rock star albeit a closeted one.

My pudding baby became a pandan baby again on Thurs and Fri. He was wheezing so bad on Thurs morning that we had to send him to KK where he was admited. He has been a noisy baby this time compared to the last admition. He cried and cried when the nurses gave him the puffs. We had to hold his hands down and the nurse will place the apparatus over his mouth and hold his face. That apparatus muffles his cries, which I thought was really cool.

Some may think it's so sad that he has to go through this. Oh pls don't add insult to injury. It happens to kids and no parents would like their kids to go through such an ordeal. I didn't ask Chia Ee to be borned with asthema (BTW, it's not confirmed but most likely because of my history), but he has it nonetheless and I thank God for it. Through it I will care more for him and not take him for granted. I praise the Lord each morning that I hear his cries and watch him struggle with grandma and me as we give him his puffs coz he is being cared for and the Lord has made it manageable for us and for him.

Oh, suddenly there are so much in my mind...

I read the newspapers two days ago and read about James Cameron controversial documentary that claims that they have found the grace of Jesus, Mary Magdalene and a child called Judah. Thus agreeing with the authords of The H-ly Gr-il and The Da Vinci Code that Jesus never die or resurrected as Christians claimed. I was angry and I wanted to blog about my feelings in frustration. I was angry coz I want to defend my faith. I felt so violated that something so precious to me should be taken and twisted. Being a Christian in the world today is hard, but we must remember that we must still share the gospel despite the increasing lack of spirituality (or rather a change from judeo-christian thoughts to eastern-mysticism) because we're called to be a witness and to live according to the Word-revealed - Christ and The Bible.

I remember that what I have is faith and what I believe in needs faith. The bible verse kept coming back to my head. I dun think God is deaf or blind to the things that's been said about Him. I am not worried because I know the Lord will vindicate his saints for His name sake! Or rather, He will vindicate Himself for his name sake! I dare not consider the fate of those who oppose God, esp those that oppose Jesus, his death and ressurection. But God has his way and I pray O lord, please do vindicate ur name for ur name sake!


Psalm 26:1
1 Vindicate me, O LORD,
for I have led a blameless life;
I have trusted in the LORD
without wavering.

Despite the evidences against the claims of the gospel, preach it and live it anyway. Despite all the unbelief, do not compromise because what we believe in is a good thing. Even if this is a mistake and I become the greater fool because of it, I will not live in regret because it is a life well-lived. But unless my faith burn out, my heart will still boldly sing "Be Thou my vision of Lord of my heart"