Meeting Benjamin

Nothing ever happens for no reason. I went to church today so that I can worship the Lord. With that intent came the reward of fellowshipping with my friends in the main worship team and in R-age. I was blessed by Boss' sermon about putting our focus on Jesus. While everybody went up to the altar, I just sat at my seat focusing and praying, fixing my eyes on the author and finisher of my faith. Nothing happens for no reason.

Liang paid for part of my lunch at Thai Express with of his cell. I talked to Marshall and Cheryl. Jeremy, Geraldine, Sharon and Heng was with us as well. Nothing happens for no reason. It was because of their decision to go to City Link's Thai Express that I met Benjamin Soh. A new man in New Creation now. When I first saw him, I called out his name and extended my arms to hug him right outside Pacific Coffee. I told him how happy I was to see him and he gave me a quick summary of what has happened. He was baptised last December and is now known as Benjamin. While his sms is so filled with the typical NCC jargon, for once I wasn't turned off because in him I really felt the grace and favor of God in his life (I greatly oppose people claiming favour, grace and love of God while wilfully living a life of Sin, deluding themselves that God's grace will save them in the end - a hyper-calvinistic notion). While many used to be so cautious about his past behaviour that he felt oppressed and unloved, I am glad that he has found a place to remind him of God's grace and mercy towards us. There are so many things we wanna share with each other. I look forward to meeting him sometime next month.

I left a guitar with him about 3 years ago before he want AWOL from R-age. Now he uses that guitar to serve in NCC's YA ministry and he even pasted "Jenn" on his guitar to remember me. It's rightfully his now. I told him I want to send him "In You (Don't change your opinion of me)" because he was the one I wrote the song for.

I praise God for finding Benjamin and giving him a new life while doubters doubt and failures fail; their love once reign is now a desert plain; the river ceased to flow from their hearts to the veins. Failing to realise that in Christ we're all the same. As I grow older, the more gracious I must become because God's grace has been evident in me. While I was a sinner now I am free. Am I a saint, yes I am. Am I a sinner, I still truly am, but Christ made the difference in me and that's all that matters and nothing else does. I trust His grace ot sustain me and change me which He has and is still continually doing. Therefore it has changed how I confront other's sin. Not in a holier-than-thou attitude, but with great tremblings for the fear of not showing Christ-likeness. In all my dealings today, that's all I really wanna do. It doesn't mean to go soft on sin, but to be like Jesus. He was uncompromising in dealing with sin, but yet people are still attracted to Him when he was on earth. There is something about Jesus that I want to be! I see Benjamin's life in the same way. His story should be told if we ever do "Let Go of Me pt2" after all, he was once part of us.

It's so weird calling you Benjamin, Danny. But I'll start calling u Benjamin from now on when I pray for you.

There are always two sides of the story. Sometimes we just have to lay the ghost to rest and let the new spirit rise from the ashes of the past then we can give them the space to live a life as a witness to the new life they have in Christ.


Dun change your opinion of me when I am down on my knees
I already know I was wrong so I come to bow down
And when the things that hindered me
Tried to shift me from someone I could be
I thought that no one cared
Out of nothing you gave me a chance to...
Believe in You

Dun change your opinion of me when I am down on my knees
I already know I was wrong so I come to bow down
And now I know I had to change
I had to rearrange my whole life messed up
I thought that no one cared
Out of nothing you gave me a chance to...
Believe in You

In You I find my peace
In You I find my place to be
It doesn't matter what I've been
You're always there to share my pain
I found love in You
I found it hard to not believe
What you said in Your words
I believe that it's strange but it's true