Good report

I was so delighted to hear good report about the Youth and Young Adult Services. I really miss the youth service, I told Ps Ronald at Wenzong's wedding on Saturday. I know that if I am going to commit my life to serve effectively, I have to sacrifice some work. It's also difficult coz I have made my family the ministry first and not R-age. Because of that I decided to work on Sundays if I have to. As a result my RL duties gets affected and the guilt is killing me, slowly eating me up from the inside. This is really bad, I tell u. Very bad. I've not been to the Youth service for whole of Oct (yes, including next week) and I have a long-term shoot in Nov and Sundays may be affected. The decision to play for service this week and next is also a bad one. I should just wash my hands off playing, but my hands were too itchy to play again. That I blame it on my lust for drums. I am really concern about that, really.

So am I messed up since I complain so much here? No, I dun think so. I just need to make restitution. Change things that need to be changed and make decisions that needs to be made. I want to do everything I do that will reflect God's glory even through the folleys I committed. Ah yes! This reminds me of what Ps Lim preached today at G2 about living in/ by the Spirit.