World's Apart

I fetched SW to school today and played the song World's Apart in repeat mode. As I played, I prayed for Andrea. This song is so timely for what they or some of us (including me) are going through. What strucked me in this song is that one can only have peace in God when he allows God to take their world apart. It means that everything we have been put our confidence, self-worth or egos on , apart for Christ, are to be considered as rubbish.

I am reminded once again:
But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind.
(Jam 1:5-6)

I want to renew my life again which should be done daily. I really miss spending my private moments with the Lord. There are so much at stake, so much to grasp, so little time, yet I am sleeping in the light. This cannot go on... I pray...

I am the only one to blame for this

Somehow it all adds up the same

Soaring on the wings of selfish pride

I flew too high and like Icarus I collide

With a world I try so hard to leave behind

To rid myself of all but loveto give and die

To turn away and not become

Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves

more deeply than the oceans,

more abundant than the tear

Of a world embracing every heartache

Can I be the one to sacrifice

Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow

To love you - take my world apart

To need you - I am on my knees

To love you - take my world apart

To need you - broken on my knees

All said and done I stand alone

Amongst remains of a life I should not own

It takes all I am to believe

In the mercy that covers me

Did you really have to die for me?

All I am for all you are

Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart

And I pray

To love you - take my world apart
To need you - I am on my knees
To love you - take my world apart
To need you - broken on my knees

I look beyond the empty cross

forgetting what my life has cost

and wipe away the crimson stains

and dull the nails that still remains

More and more I need you now,

I owe you more each passing hour

battle between grace and pridegive up not so long ago

So steal my heart and take the pain,

wash the feet and cleanse my pride

take the selfish, take the weak,

and all the things I cannot hidetake the beauty, take my tears

this sin-soaked heart and make it yours

take my world aparttake it now, take it now

and serve the ones that I despise

speak the words I can't deny

watch the world I used to love

fall to dust get blown away

I look beyond the empty cross

forgetting what my life has cost

so wipe away the crimson stains

and dull the nails that still remain

so steal my heart and take the pain

take the selfish, take the weak

and all the things I cannot hide

take the beauty, take my tears

take my world apart, take my world apart

and I pray, and I pray,

and I praytake my world apart