Revival

Soon something somehow will have to give:

the ground that I am standing on;

the sky that I look upon;

the sea that waves at me;

the air that we breathe in;

the stars that shines at night.

Oh Lord, my God, hold me and make my body, mind and spirit one

Keep my sanity if I have to plead the opposite

May Your peace reign supreme within.

I don't want to do what's natural

I want to do what is holy and acceptable

If I must rent my heart out of it's socket

Or gourge my eyes so that I won't regress

I'll gladly make this bloody mess and swim in this scarlet pool

The evantuality is inevitable.

Sooner or later something will have to give,

And I pray that it won't be me.

By Your grace that in the days of old sustained me;

By your mercy I've been pardoned

And by the stripes that made me free

After all my wandering years Your grace is still sufficient for me

Before I find no pleasure in persuing You like I did in my days of youth

Before the days of trouble come

Before the sun and the light and the moon and the stars grow dark,

And the clouds return after the rain;

Oh Lord, my God, hold me and make my body, mind and spirit one

I have wanted to scream out to God the whole week. Writing this prayer is as good as that scream. I feel so much better being able to put into words how I feel. So much better!!