Bouncing Random Ideas on a SBS bus filled with people

I've searched the universe for an answer
To find peace and solace in a desolate land
Though life is filled with milk and honey/ money
But the onus was on me
With the bonuses far removed, my life is a living hell
And nothing is left except a longing for you .

Our lives is full of witnesses to our weaknesses
They wait like circling vultures to devulge our inside just to show that we're no different from them
So I vowed to live blamelessly and to walk without a jolt
But O how they came down on me when I fell

How do u live in denial calling every curse a blessing?
How do u claim God's promises when u're being eaten alive?
In the heat of the moment can u tell which cloud it is u're on?.

I want to be an original, an original, an original