Chinese New Year

Hey Joey,

I dun have a photo of u in my PC at home! I love u bro! U know that! I know I haven't spent as much time with u, Liang and some other precious few. But take heart, u're really precious to me, yo!

Jenn

I've been chatting with Daniel a lot lately. It's great to know that he is doing great now. I pray that he God will continue to guide him in this life. It's not a maze with Christ as our guide. I know that when we live according to His will, according to His standard, we will nevergo wrong. Will we Christians fail then? Yes we wll, we will fail for a time or more, but we will not ultimately fail because the Holy Spirit will guide us through our lives. Through Daniel's life, through your life. It doesn't take too much to experience this, but it takes so much to human-minds to accept this objective reality.

That is why I pray everyday, everyday I pray that the Lord renew my mind. Everyday, I know I lack the discipline to read His world or to pray at all times; to keep my mind alert in the spirit. I may not do this everyday, I failed, but I will not ultimately fail. Knowing that I will not ultimately fail, I do not take a backseat and wait for God to "do his thing". I long to obey His word and I long to please the Lord in everything I do. When the bible says "wait on the Lord" what does it mean to really wait? Should I just sit there and do nothing? May be, perhaps or may be not. So I live my life with fervour and zeal. I do things rashly at time without thinking. Are those risk worth taking? Yes, may be and no. I dunno, but I know this is true: I am learning to discern what God's will for me really is. Some say it's a secret, some say that God will reveal in due time. I say that as long as I am living, I will praise Him in all circumstances. I will not deliberately sin and say that "all things (including consciencely sinning against God) will work for good." But I will do my part in walking accordance to the Scripture because it is my spirit's life that runs like the blood in my veins. Take that blood from me and I will be as dry as the bones in the valley of the shadow of death.

I am sick of the controversies that surrounds our faith. I just want to obey. I just want to point others to the Way, the Truth and the Life. I want to point others to Christ!

For Christ's sake! I really want to be more effective. I am 30 now. Suddenly I feel like I'm stuck in a moment where I can't do anything about it. Am I really stuck? If He that is in me is greater than he that is in the World, what am I to do? What can I do?

I know, U know.