Real

I am enjoying my work and for the first time I really feel the test of my faith, a personal struggle within to do what I want to do but I do not. I hope that I will stand firm even though I do not have time to spend with the Lord in quiet time, I have to keep my heart in an attitude of prayer and worship in what I do. Sometimes I feel bad for not praying enough even in those situation. I know there is nothing wrong with me and I have to remind myself what the Lord says in His word. Oh His word! I miss His word! Time to meditate on it tomorrow. Therefore I will stop updating tonight and wait upon the Lord before I sleep and to start my day with him when I wake.

Jeanie wrote a very moving testimony about the Cell kids. I am very proud of them. I am glad to have been part of that group of youngsterz. I really love them lotz! I really miss the youth service too. Going to service is one thing, but going to Youth service is another. Not being there for 3 weeks makes me long for it after reading and listening to all the testimonies. All the e-mails also make me miss R-age.

Oh Lord, even whn I love the ministry and work in church, remind me to put u as my first love and not to put those other things above u.