Scared but peaceful

I am most afraid to read some blogs and to find them struggling. How can you not feel for them and pray for them. Esp when they have the solution but it's just so difficult for them to see life from where you are standing from. I guess we all have to let them all go through their own valleys of darkness. The most blessed assurance is that with faith, we all can go thru them knowing well that the LORD is with us all the time. That is confidence and that is so calming to my spirits. Because God is taking care of them, all I need to do is pray and be there for them when I could attend to them.

Carry the Wounded
Carry the Wounded

So what has become of myself after the retreat? I am very very afraid! I see so many people touched by the Lord at the retreat but kept doubting the genuinity of their change. Who am I to doubt them? I am also like them, susceptible to failing even more because I know my own weaknesses best. I am so scared but yet assured that if I keep my heart and mind in the Word of God, I know I will be safe. But I am so weak when I dun have enough rest or when I begin to becoem too busy for my own good. Rest, REST! I need to find a spiritual "spa" in the pressense of God. It could be now, it's could be anytime at anywhere.

Oh my mind is so cluttered with so manyy stuff like Retreat, Sonic Fest, youths, ministry, church, truth, etc

Aiya, I am too busy for my own good... cannot thing straight... why? I know why...

Will I ever Your love again?
Is this empty heart something You'll mend?

Sometimes we think we have so much, when we have nothing at all. Thank God for his "warning system", I have not fallen yet, dun worry. I am just blogging my thoughts. Now that I know I can either take this emotions up or down, it's entirely up to me where I want to go.

I think I will look into Jesus today, no everyday! I dun want to have a sucky day again. I bet I will be tempted everyday to feel down, but I know who I trust in and I know He will see me thru!