How to shut'up

Yes, I should learn how to be quick to listen and slow to speak. I just hope I didn't hurt anyone at rehearsal last night. I guess I had a good time and I was my usual self, getting carried away by the fact that I AM PLAYING DRUMS AGAIN!! On the drumming aspect, I enjoyed it. To play next to Jeremy, Liang and Dan was a thrill. Still I talk too much, I was too opinionated and it makes me sick. May be what I didn't piss people off, but I'll be if someone talks to me that way.

I can't stand myself sometimes. Do u feel that way about yourself sometimes too, when u are just so sick of who u are? It's good that we realise our weakness because this is when we really need to check on ourselves on what we need to change so that we may be at peace with one another esp in the body of Christ.

I thought about the comments I made after prayer meeting. I talked about the central theme of the prayer meeting earlier. I dun think I said it with humility. What was I thinking? I said it out of the best of intentions, but I feeled condemned coz I am not exactly living it.

I thought of the conversation I had with CX at lunch and I realised how much time I've wasted on Sundays working, sleeping, slacking and not meeting the Sec 2 CMs. What a wasted first half of the year I had! Restitution must be made!

Change? Yes, u need to change and stop thinking that u are "IT", Jenn. U are nothing if not for Jesus. Forgive me, Lord.


Sitting in my great pretence
Treading on waters of sand
Raising my voice and intentions
Raise them so high so others could see
Look through these stained-glasses spectacles
Missing a bigger view of things

Looking at my ignorance
Selling my gold but who could afford
Look at my impending woes
Scared of losing to an innocent foe
Look through these stained-glasses spectacles
Missing a bigger view of things to come

Confessional ways, Unconfessional ways
Tripped on my next thought
I'm lost in my own world
Conditional friends put up with my sickening plans

"Get rid of the things that you seek
Know that it will rot inside you"

Will You take me right out of here
Capture my thoughts
Renew in Your favour
Break me
Clense me with fire to have the desire
To be more like You
Til you look into this pot of gold
And see a reflection of You
And over all the glory will be a canopy